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I'm still thinking about last night. We talked for a long time........It got intense. And I mean really intense..Like..It was the first time she ever POURED out her feelings to me. Like..It was so detailed...It felt so personal that even I don't want to type it down..She literally broke down over the phone..And I told her not to break down over the phone because it'll make ME break down over the phone..Ughhhhh...We talked about a lot of things...And I mean, A LOT of things..It was a 30 min conversation.



I just got home from work and read her journal..I don't know if she's talking about me or if she's talking about another guy. I hope that what she told me is real..I hope that she didn't say whatever she said just to get on my good side again. I'm feeling so vulnerable right now.....It's not even funny..I want to hear her voice again...



I was working all day and hadn't talked to her since last night...I miss her like crazy. I think she ignored me so she won't talk to me on Meebo...I don't know,,..I don't know if her feelings are real or not. It sounded WAY too real on the phone...Mai, are we going out or what? Just answer this for me...



I still don't know if she's talking about me in her journal..I don't know what to think. This journal is short as hell, why? Cause I have to be at work at 8:15 am...Not like the usual 12..I have to go to sleep early and wake up early..But I get off at 12..I hope I can talk to her tomorrow..Mai, why won't you be mines?


Are you testing me? Are you trying to see how much more pain I can take from you? It hurts so bad I don't think I can take the pain that your giving me anymore..How much more are you going to get hurt by other guys who doesn't even treat you the way you should be treated? Are you going to hurt me for the 3rd time?


I want to let the world know that we're together..But are we..? Answer me..