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not really.

i graduate from high school tomorrow. but in my mind, it doesn't feel like the right time.

i should be overjoyed, the weather should be perfect and sunny and warm, i should feel carefree, and life should just be good.


but it isn't.


there's so much stress from trig and graduation prep and fear of a burnout, i just don't know what to do.

it's to the point where even my closest friends and relatives i won't even say happy birthday to on facebook.

i think this should be a carefree time, but what with the stress of trying to organize a party with this blundering idiots who break kitten's legs (fer serious, it happened tonight), i don't know what to do.

i can't.


i should be excited.


or at least have some other emotion than this burnout-type thing that's setting in my stomach and creating a buzz in my mind.


i don't know.



i just don't freaking know.




SOMEBODY TELL ME WHY I'M NOT HAPPY.