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Yes, I have finally decided to update my journal. The reason why I have decided to do so is because I know at the moment that there are those who are once again aggrevated at me for untold reasons.

My question to those in particular is this...

What did I honestly do to get you to hate me?

Is it of the fact that I am with Ashlee once again and this is still bothering you, even though I know full well that I've had to painstakingly compensate for the grievances taken by you through much discussion?

Is it of the fact that I had not spent the time to talk to you personally even though the evidence is clear that I am working diligently at balancing my personal time along with the time I have scheduled to hang out with a great majority of a friendslist that exceeds 200 friends?

I know that there are many other good reasons to why someone would most definitely hate me, however this goes to show you that no one is perfect in what they do; that there will be times when one will have their high and lows. I am only human and the things that I will do and not do will always have a consequence. Please respect the fact that I am doing the best that I can and that life will not always revolve around your world because it will never be physically possible for me to keep everyone content.

With that being said, I must install one more thing to this entry. Though it may seem to you that I have somewhat changed because I am with Ashlee, please do not hold her accountable for the actions that I have done. It is not her that controls my every actions but my own personality alone. Yes, she is the main target to hate because I am with her, but please, leave her out of the fire because the one to hate would be me. It was I that decided to be with her, it was I who broke up with many of my good friends in order to be with her again, and it was I who never lied about how I felt about anything.

So I leave you with this...

Can it be me as myself to whom is dismantling the foundations of our flourished friendship, or can it be your own self-desire to get what you want and hope all those comply? Really, it is safe to say that this society is created to fit all mankind, however though this is the assertion, not all of the individuals that accomodate for our society will be content with whom is amongst them. Furthermore, to describe the main trait that is shared with all of us, there is none to be known that is an entirely perfect human being. Life is a struggle that forces those who play along to fight for the correctness of sanity, therefore I advise to not fall into the category that would characterize you as a selfish, self-centered individual...