So guys~
I finally got a scanner, but I don't exactly feel like drawing. I started on a new Taiwanese drama but don't really feel like watching it now. I've gotten bored of the Taiwanese Yahoo Answers! as well; it's much easier navigating on the English site.
One thing I don't like about my house is that it's so loud. My neighborhood's really silent. At night I practically can't sleep because I hear my heartbeat, and the creaking of the floors, and everything else. I always have to bury my alarm clock under the covers so that it doesn't bother me... that's a double edged sword right there. I can't sleep with it ticking, and it can't wake me up as effectively when it's under three layers. This all can't be helped. After all, it's an old house and even the air conditioning (the vents set in high in the walls instead of on the bottom) is broken. Lots of times doors slam shut by themselves with thing deafening BANG! And it's not because of some gust or a nearby window. It's really strange. My sister told me it was probably some weird thing to do with air currents. (Except for that one rare instance where a thief actually managed to sneak in.) At night I always hear someone coming but of course there is nobody coming. At least I haven't been having any episodes of sleep paralysis or else that WOULD REALLY SUCK.
Whenever I vent in my journal I feel like some random somebody is going to stop by and think that I'm exaggerating, writing for attention, being an annoying complainer, etc. But how are you supposed to vent otherwise? It's not healthy to keep things bottled up, and especially if there is nobody to confide in IRL. So here I am again. I feel really terrible today... I feel like I literally have nobody to talk to now. My friends are so unsupportive. Good to know that when your mood and mind are taking a dive, they're dropping like flies. Or like moths. Moths only gravitate towards the light. At this point I'd be relieved to see a friendly face online, and even now I feel like I'm growing apart from them... online friends. The ones that aren't supposed to be affected by that. GOD I feel so alone...
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Serene: To the General Public At Last
A few pieces of Ser's thoughts and life, which are carefully broken down from her life mosaic and preserved into this online journal. Read with care.
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