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Oh my guys, there were so many times I wanted to post a new entry, just didn't really have the time and feeling for it. Listening to this by the way. Actually, I haven't had much feeling for anything lately. (OMG the music's vid clip is so awesome, fits my likings a lot.)

I just notice now my TV is still on. You know, no picture, just that if you press a button on the remote it will turn on, but right now it's turned off. Does it make any sense? Anyways, I just wrote this because I wanted to tell you guys how awesome Lovely Complex is. I just watched an ep on TV (weird thing, because I usually hate dub, but it was still awesome) and OMG it was soooo good to see it!

I wonder if I have told you about Clannad already? You see, yesterday I kinda wanted to have a little cry (for an optimistic and always cheerful girl like me, I sometimes need to cry, yaknow how it is, bro) and decided to rewatch Gin's death scene, from Bleach. Hmph, that was way not enough. I mean, they just cut it like that, and they don't give it much time. It was amazingly touching, but so short...! So after a little while I thought of Clannad. Afterstory. Still haven't seen it and I wonder if I ever will. If I ever will be able to watch it. I only watched a damned scene on Youtube (Okazaki apologizes to Ushio, then tells her about Nagisa and starts crying) and I was already trying to hold back sobs. That was so f***ing touching and deep. I didn't want to cry out loud, because, I mean, my whole family was home and it was like late afternoon or night...
You see, I think I have a diagram of crying. It all started when I went to the cosmetician. It hurt like hell... it was about a month ago or so. I kinda started crying there, but I had to suppress it, because, man, the whole place was echoing, and there were other people as well, and the cosmetician was a real jerk, like "OMG don't tell me you're gonna start crying now? *sigh* I'm not even doing it hard!" (SHE WAS KILLING MY FACE, DAMMIT!) I kinda nodded and agreed, I mean, what the hell was I supposed to do? But I couldn't hold it back, and some tears popped out, and stuff like that, but I did my best, so not tears were made. When I got finished, and looked at myself in the mirror - that was the moment I wanted to cry the most. 3 long hours of cold and f***ing pain, for an even worse condition than I had. Not even the rubbing and massaging part was comfy and nice! AND IT WAS SO FREAKING COLD IN THERE! So I just paid and got home, didn't want to cause any trouble. My mom started nagging me to show her my face, which I really didn't want. I don't know what has gotten to me, but I just wanted everyone to leave me. She didn't stop nagging me, and I broke out in crying, and sobbed for half an hour about my screwed up face. Because it was all red spots. My face looked rather normal before cosmetician, but afterwards even the invisible spots were screaming red. That was the first time in a long while I cried, like really.
Then, slowly, I started Clannad, and it is really emotional, and sad, and touching. So I kinda had a few tears at it...
And, about 2 months later, I can barely hold back sobbing at only one, damned, anime, scene.

Long rant was long. Man, guys, I gotta go to sleep. Gonna continue later! Bye-bee! (gintama refer)