Hey guys, it's been a while. I hope some of you are still on here and are able to read this message. There's a couple of things that have to be said...and a couple of things that I have to apologize for.
I'll start with the apologizes because they're brief, for the most part. I'm really sorry about the four month hiatus I took away from here. It's mostly school-related, but I'll come back to that in a moment. The other thing i must apologize for is for Savage Heart. I realize that I did indeed abandon it for the sake of doing well in university, but I also left you guys hanging unnecessarily. For that, I'm really sorry. This may sound like an excuse, but there were too many things going on in my life. But I should have come back to let you know what was up. Again, I'm really sorry.
Now that that's out of the way, it's time to get to some more serious issues...
What the hell happened? You disappeared off the planet!
Yeah, I know. For those of you who don't know, I've been really busy with school. I'm in my second year of university and classes have gotten tougher. They now require for me to read a whole lot more material in a shorter space of time. Having a crappy schedule (ie: 8:30-5:30 classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, plus one mid-morning class on Monday, and early morning classes Wednesdays and Fridays) doesn't help my situation at all. Also essays. They are the bane of my existence. I had to write six of them in four months. It was bad. :S So as you can see, I practically had no life outside of school. Hence why I would not have time for Gaia.
Okay, so you were busy with school. Is that all?
No, there are other issues that come to mind. One of them is disinterest, which I will discuss later. The other one was that I was suffering from depression for the past four months. It wasn't bad enough that I needed medication to get rid of it or that I was having suicidal thoughts, but it was bad enough to make me a thoroughly irritable and miserable person. It may have caused by a few things: by the fact that I had no life outside of school, that I saw friends seldomly and not for very long, that my mum was being hard on me by limiting my amount of free time and time in general, my beloved cat Star passed away in August and I miss her terribly, and by the fact that I had trouble sleeping and was keep awake by restless thoughts in my head. I'm more or less over it now, but I'm worried that it might return next semester when I resume school. At the moment I'm fine, since it's kinda hard to be depressed in Mexico. xD But yeah, I'm trying to stay positive.
What's this about "disinterest"? Are you leaving Gaia?
Unfortunately, yes. I don't come on here very often and, as a result, I feel very detached from the society on here (I'm not very talkative) and I don't really fit in. I talk to a few people on a regular basis (regular as in prior to September), but besides that, I'm pretty much invisible.
I'm also upset by how Gaia as a site has developed. Items are over priced and inflation is through the roof, the site caters to those who spend real money on here, the holiday events are mediocre and half-baked and so are the new items, they still haven't removed the receive gaia cash through during online surveys program which has the potential for overloading your computer with viruses and email spam, the forums are poorly moderated...I could go on, but I won't. I'm sure you're aware of the various unsolved problems on the site. It hurts me to say this but...Gaia has turned into another Neopets. The main staff managing the site don't care about what you think should be done or fixing the glitches on the site; they just want your money. Your feedback falls on deaf ears, my friends. Unless you're talking about money. So yeah, I'm not impressed Gaia. Not at all. :/
Watch them delete my account on here...it wouldn't surprise me. xD
With that said, I'm thinking about leaving Gaia in the new year. I will be auctioning off my items before I go. Of course, those people who I feel the closest to will have the right to choose what they want from my inventory. I will make a list of items from my inventory in a separate entry. But that is for another time.
To wrap this up, I'm really sorry about not being on here, and for planning on leaving, but it's (sort of) for the best. It's not a very merry Christmas-y message, I know. ^^; But these were things that had to be said.
I will back on here a for a couple of days, but then I won't be online until the new year. If you would like to keep in touch with me, I am now on deviantart and I go on there at least once day. ^^ Here is the link to my profile: Click plz Just let me know who you are first before contacting me on there...otherwise it'd be awkward. xP
I wish you all a very merry Christmas (or Happy Hanukah if you're Jewish) and a happy new year. Hopefully you won't have to deal with the crap I had do deal with in the new year.
[Kat]
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That is something I wish you came to me about. You are not the only one who has had them, and I have gotten through them beforehand. I would have gladly talked you through those times if you needed somebody. You have many ways to contact me. If you need my cell, that can be arranged, too. Just, the next time, let me know, and I will do what I can to help you.
Daniel.