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it's not there anymore...at least not for her.
Is it wrong that i miss her so much, but when we FINALLY talk she acts like she doesnt miss me at all. Maybe she doesn't. I didnt see her say that now that i think about it. And then she wanted to let me go. i gave her back her famous line that she always tells me " if you want" and yet. She actually did want to stop talking to me. If not an apology i at least expected her to tell me she missed me. Just that, but i guess she just doesnt love me anywhere near as much as i love her. She'll feel this way in three years i guess. If i ever dont talk to her for that long, in three years she'll know how i feel. but now, just now, i didnt feel a damn thing from her. It was like we were mediocre friends that talked boringly to each other. damn i wish i didnt love her as much as i do, then i wouldnt care if i was even on her mind. When i told her that i missed her so much all she told me was yea. Just " yea"!! not even an " oh i miss you too babe" or anything close to that. and I'm supposed to be paying for her ticket to go to disneyland on saturday?? really? Will we even talk much? Hold hands? Or will i have to ask you a series of questions so that you'll spit some words out and we'll call it a conversation like we always do right? being in love sucks when the one you love doesnt show it at all....