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I need to remember this moment.

For some reason, an episode in the office created a mental slap for me. I don't know why ....seeing how miserable Michael Scott should be with all that's been going for him, and seeing him not be affected by it, it feels so weird. After watching the episode, I came to realize these ... things.

I don't know call me weird I know, but I'm not writing for anyone else I'm writing for me. I look at my hands and I wonder ... what can I do with them? I look at my face and I wonder ... who can I inspire with it? My eyes are set forward for this split second, its like the social drama, academic stress and even self-doubt has left me for this moment. I feel like I can tackle the world and nothing should EVER limit me. Confidence people would call it, but I would call it a resolve. I hope its permanent rather then temporary.

In this world you have to work hard for a better life. You have to work hard to get the things you want, even if that means suffering a little.

Take it like a man is all I have to say. Let the world kick your a** ... Let it beat you up, throw you around and screw you over. In the end, don't give up, because NOT GIVING UP is what makes better men. NOT GIVING UP is what shapes a stronger and more confident person. A person who can take on life without doubting him or herself.

If someone teases you about your hair or makes you feel like you don't belong. Don't let it sink in a erode you heart ... Toughen your skin and kick some a**. Whether that be making them feel bad, or jealous, or sorry, or regretful for what they did. JUST DO IT. But I warn you ... results don't come over night.

Do not let small things hinder you... step on them and continue towards the future. If you fall, get back up, and keep on fighting. Don't be lazy, if someone else can do it, then so can you. Everyone entered that class the same way, no different from the rest. In the end, its what you do individually that separates you from everyone else, not necessarily in a smart way.

Pay no attention to society. Society does not shape you, you shape society by looking at it a different way. You and you alone have the power to shape yourself. Do NOT give anyone else this power.

So in the end, do what YOU feel is right for yourself. Don't let the world choose where you should go. And if you should experience suffering, misery, pain, regret ... keep pushing through, because this will make you a better person. This is what I have come to realize. I once asked myself, " why did god make it so hard for us to get a better life? Why are we all suffering when we all could have had a perfect life in the beginning? " Now I truly realize, that god created the world in the way that I see it now. To be harsh and challenging, so that we may become better people.