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To get some stuff of my chest gonk , because it's eating me alive ughhhh. Might as well let freee, I only have 1 year left and yeah Well here we go.(Honestly don't care if it's public anymore, and whoever reads it because lol its not offensive and can't start s**t, this is the way I feel honestly ha). Well ever since summer started, well when I was getting my report cards or whatever..something has been bothering me, >_> and I couldn't quite put my finger on it. Of course, I would play it cool and act like I didn't care but honestly I guess deep down in my heart, I really do, sadly gonk . Well, the group is almost together and everything but..ugh, I don't know if feels mad weird now..even though we had our difference and arguments its weird. When I got scolded at by Mark and Darrell from deleting the videos and how I should of kept them for memories, I honestly felt mad, at that point I was utterly pissed off, and I didn't want anything to do with hearing the voices nor the faces, so I had to deleted some kind of memory of both of them from my mind. But now that I think about it, I think I want to look now, because hmm, you only live once, and I can't really hold a grudge that long unless it was something reallly really mad, which in my POV this wasn't I dealted with worser stuff lol. Well, I really do not care about being named calls, or other bullshit people have been telling me or, even at the tempt of accusing me of stuff I didn't even do, really -___-, well anyway. I don't really care it's whatever it doesn't faze me at all, but that's not the point--, I have been feeling bad lately, maybe things haven't turned out the way I planned, I didn't expect it to end like this, I tried to forget our friendship, and maybe I can't because Shamika was the first friend I actually had when going to Blessed Sacrament( excluding the Brittneys). Well I guess people change for a reason, is all I can say, I'm not good with words, only good with writing it out lol, but anywayyyyyyyyyyy, after the "issues" about Shamika and William claiming crap about me, threatening them, or some other stuff one after another, it was coming down to just stupidness, lol Wow, idk, weird. I don't even know who threatened them, after we all dicussed about Mr. Sullivan about the whole gaia argument it was and end to it all but it seemed to be an issue after another. I didn't even noticed them at all. The only time I really noticed them is with the issue with Naschard and her cousin or godsis, whatever confused
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Well, this is all my POV, oh what the ******** was going on..well on the regents week?.
Well the same old same old, playing uno, with them and stuff, when someone says, there's Shamika, I of course, really don't want to get in it or don't care, noticing someone is with her at the corner of my eye -___-, while we were leaving to go to the bell, I noticed she said,"Is that her?" directing to me, of course I ignored it and walked on, well when I come to the class room Naschard tells me something about her, something that she said something to her or whatever idk, I don't remember, um, then later on Shamika comes in the same classroom as me and Naschard...ironic isn't it lol..? Well all I heard was b***h, and fatass ******(lmfao), which surprised me. Well after that---that was just a drama day, which I had nothing to do with, thank god, I was out of the picture>.>
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There have been times, when I felt bad and stuff, when I actually wanted to talk to her or whatever but I guess that will never happen, I was thinking of sending a pm or whatever but, I don't think I can trust her at this moment -__-". Well anyyyyyway, strange how, s**t came out of nowhere when we were all playing uno outside, random drama, over something stupid...wow, all I can do is watch as always--of course not in this. Once again, Naschard said tells me something about him seeing her cousin or god sis idk, and more crap wow, -____- well I guess that's all done with..
Well after hearing stuff about Naschard, saying how they broke up or lots of other stuff going on, at first I was like damn Karma, leaving friends for a boy..but then I felt bad, I don't know why. I felt as though she needed a friend or someone to talk to, but then I came across other stuff that were thrown at me, that I did not like. So you know what I just left it alone, she's going to have to learn things the hard way...-_-, no one listens to me at all but yet people come to me for advice...I reallly really really did miss when we would talk about stuff and all that going to target, best buy and other crap, it would of been interesting if we did talked while, they were going out or whatever, even me talk to her now, because I bet were going through the same crap, with the relationship between a guy, the friendship, loneliness or whatever. confused Can't really say anything though, I'll remember the good times thoughhhh surprised ..good times good times, going to target, petco, best buy and other stuff. Imma think of the good times, yup yup yup. Can't really wish bad things, or laugh about what bad things happen to people, because in the end it will get thrown at you -_____-. Welp, I guess my mind is clear of all of this nonsense xp
 Roxas In Twilight Town · Tue Jul 27, 2010 @ 04:23am · 0 Comments |
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