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I once lived a non - Christian live . One full of drinking, depression and of anger and painful experiences which there are one to many to list .

My road was one that seemed endless and dark but it did have light seemed to be pointing me in one direction which was that of (BE ON YOUR GAUARD).

Throughout out my life I have been hurt emotionally.physically,mentally and spiritually not easy for me to admit this at all their are many times when I needed someone but was alone , and only had God my true father to hold and comfort me. At times rebuke and discipline me and due to my stubbornness of always thinking I was fine and I could to anything on my own ,and heal on my own . Sadly found out I was wrong ended up a lot of scars that wish could make disappear but can't. I now see as reminder and a blessing to help win others to Christ .

Most of my life I was shuttled between two families due to my parents being divorced and remarried and had kids eventually in their remarriages . Many of own family that trusted and loved once had now become my enemies and no longer trusted once where also and sadly used my kind and helpful nature get what they hungered for didn't care about cost to do it . Was left horrible flashbacks and feeling that was only good for what I was used for . I battle with these issues everyday and depression still battle also and mistrust turned into being overly cautious about everything and anything.

In order for me to keep my faith and life for Christ trying to live my own life not one had planned out for me under then rulership of no opinion or emphasis on how my life should be lived sadly split many of us apart . Trying to heal damage that been done can never be fixed in my time alive. No matter how hard I tried I only ended up dead end road blocks that could only be healed by God's love and his hand . All that I can do now is pray for them .

All can say it my life has been no picnic never was before or after Christ entered my life can say one thing helped me except Who I am , Realize who I am , What my purpose is in life was , and why I was alive ? Which is love and worship him and use my life for his glory no matter who I run into friend,family or enemy no matter what has been done to me on any level .

Jesus said unto him, Thou salt love thy Lord your God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is first and greatest commandment . The second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbor as thyself. On these to commandments hang all the law and prophets.
- Matthew 22:37-40.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr
( Found that living by this had been hard one many thing keeps me encouraged not give up the fight for Christ that took so long ago . smile

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths
Proverbs 3, 5-6

Also

Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
Colossians 3:23-24

I leave you with is one question and one choice who will you choose in this life?God or the World & Satan. You only have one Life and one choice and time is ticking. Praying for you my many readers believers and non believers alike may God bring peace in whichever road you take but remember this only comes once in a life time don't wait until it's to late to choose your path in life to be at peace and know that have answer to I know where going after I die.