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fear of being know..
having more people leave...
being utterly alone..
fear of showing my emotions...
having them controlled so no one can see my pain...
during family hardship...while around them..seeing them cry...
wanting to cry with them...but to afraid to show my pain to them..
causing me to go to a corner...look away...hurting myself to make sure no tears are shed...or seen...
but my weak body fails me...tears roll down..
hiding my face from them..hiding my tears...
quickly wipe the tears away..but more form..
squeeze my arm to stop them from falling..
but no amount of phsyical pain..could stop my internal pain...
the pain of your heart...
fear causes you to be afraid of showing a side of you to others..
makes you want to hide from your own fear...
fear is what truely makes you alone..
not people abandoning you but you abandoning them...
not letting anyone in..to understand your fears...your pain...
you are alone because your fear got the better of you...
that is why im alone...my fear consumed me...