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as i disappear for this place i look back and cry
i cry because i made great friends here
i know the pain i caused everyone
and i am ready to ease it

but what if i am the cause
a "perfected" person with no flaws?

i would be trapped
and thats where i am now,
Thats where i am now.
THATS WHERE I AM NOW!

IM Trapped inside myself...
i cant take this shyt anymore

the pain i caused all of you
it hurts me more then anything
especially you...

i look into your eyes....
i see that i cant make up for what i did
so i try to tell you
try to please you
but it can never be the same

you look down on me
i try to pull you up
but i get pushed down
i help with all i got
but i see its not enough

i am sorry
sorry for doing this to you all
but it is time
time for me to escape

Im trapped inside myself
i know for shure
no matter where i go
i feel like a caged animal
i cant do, i cant do , i cant do
anything for you
because u look down upon me
you look down upon me

I cant see anymore
the light within my tunnel
my tunnel is pitch black

and i feel myself TRAPPED!

as i disappear for this place i look back and cry
i cry because i made great friends here
i know the pain i caused everyone
and i am ready to ease it

But what if i am the cause?
The "perfected" person with no flaws?

Then i will disappear
to set you all free
from the monster that is me

Its too late to change my mind,
the deed is already done...
I had a good time hanging with you all
i truly did have fun

for all my friends
i wish you the best
im saving you from me
without me you guys can do the rest
my life is worthless
without you i am nothing

you look down on me for what i did
and i know i deserve it

i cant take it anymore!
I cant take it anymore!

there is so much a man can take
before he cracks
im cracked
im flawed
nowhere close to perfect
but your still here
why? why are you here?
do u love me?
you say you do but
why? i dont even deserve it

So this is good bye and i want you to know
i love you~
if you loved me like you say you do
you'll find a way to reach me
you held me tight so many times
and i hurt you
you gave me strength
when i made you weak

Its too late for me but not for you
I give you this poem to remind yourself

I'm here but i am TRAPPED!

as i disappear for this place i look back and cry
i cry because i made great friends here
i know the pain i caused everyone
and i am ready to ease it

but what if i am the cause
a "perfected" person with no flaws?

I look at you and smile
You still love me?
I love you....
but i am trapped!

not because of you
but because of what i did.
ill miss you a lot
ill think of you a lot when i disappear
because i am an Imperfect Human
An Imperfect Human that cant be loved
loved by no one
because if they love me
they will only get hurt by my monster in me
i cant save you or do anything against it

if i go its the only way
the way to save you
but if i stay
all of you all of you
will get hurt by me
the monster that dwells in me
so save yourself
from the Imperfect Human!


as i disappear for this place i look back and cry
i cry because i made great friends here
i know the pain i caused everyone
and i am ready to ease it

But what if i am the cause?
The "perfected" person with no flaws?

Then i will disappear
to set you all free
from the monster that is me

Its too late to change my mind,
the deed is already done...
I had a good time hanging with you all
i truly did have fun

for all my friends
i wish you the best
im saving you from me
without me you guys can do the rest
my life is worthless
without you i am nothing

you look down on me for what i did
and i know i deserve it

i cant take it anymore!
I cant take it anymore!

there is so much a man can take
before he cracks
im cracked
im flawed
nowhere close to perfect
but your still here
why? why are you here?
do u love me?
you say you do but
why? i dont even deserve it

So this is good bye and i want you to know
i love you~
if you loved me like you say you do
ull find a way to reach me
u held me tight so many times
and i hurt you
you gave me strength
when i made you weak

Its too late for me but not for you
i give you this poem to remind yourself

im here but i am TRAPPED!

as i disappear for this place i look back and cry
i cry because i made great friends here
i know the pain i caused everyone
and i am ready to ease it

but what if i am the cause
a "perfected" person with no flaws?

I will save you from me.
As i fall in the darkness i look up at you
i see you but i cant hold you
because my monster comes out
i fall hoping all will be saved from me
this isnt goodbye only farewell

i am an Imperfect Human
only half human
the other half is my monster
trapping me inside myself
i ask for help but nobody answers

is this goodbye?

no, only farewell
I am Trapped and i cant get out
im suffocating inside
hoping one day i can be free
free so i can spread my wings and fly
i thought i was before but i know now
that i can never be..
im TRAPPED
because i am an Imperfect Human