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January 26, 2010
That night I fell asleep thinking about Adam Lambert, after looking up several pictures of him, saving my favorites and listening to his song for your entertainment. I must have listened to him all day and already knew each song I loved by heart witch there was many I didn't like at all. In my dream I became a young man about 18 with short just been shaved blond hair and long black choppy bangs on the right side of my face barley over the top of my light green eye. wearing black eye liner and a long red jacket with a big a** collar and stitched on arms, I wore it open always. I also was wearing a collar that hat two broken bells on it one for my mother and the other for my father which both had died. My shirt was short and black with fishnet under it reveling my bear belly. The pants I wore were black with a single red pocket on the right leg stitched on they were tight and form fitting, and I also wore half a army green and dark purple skirt on the left side of my pants, I called it my man skirt! I waited patiently outside the auditions building for the 10th season for American idol I had only came to goof around knowing I couldn't sing even if my life had depended on it witch I always hope it never would. The number on my shirt was the same as my favorite runner-up Adam Lambert 1877, which made my day even more fun. when they called for it to be my turn I got up cool and calm knowing I wasn't going to embarrass myself, all because it already was my plan to do so. I came in and just started to sing my all time favorite Adam Lambert song Whataya Want From me I hit every note and sang every word, almost being able to sing the whole song backwards. When I had finished The judges looked at me with wide eyes I smiled knowing I hadn't passed and put my arms behind my head saying "No need to tell me, It was all in my plan thanks for listening" as I started to the door. That’s when they stopped me, and Asked me " What do you mean all in your plan?" they then all looked at one another and said all at once " you’re through to the next round!" At first I had not believed them but when I got my paper to go on I had almost started to laugh with joy . I took the paper and ran out the door. From there I had gone through each round singing another one of my Idols songs. Half way through the competition Randy had called a friend of his to see if they would come to the next round to surprise one of his biggest fans and see how well they sang. I was up next and I was sweating as I Applied my make up because I was next. So I finished quickly and ran out to the stage For your Entertainment had started to play, but before I could say a word Adam Lambert had come out on stage and started sing about how he needed to be Entertained. I forced myself not to faint and sang after he finished about how I was there for his entertainment. At the end of The duo my eyes were watering so much from happiness, he put his arm around me. He was taller and way better looking in person he looked down at my with a smile on his face as he said "Are you going to be okay?" I looked back up at him with the same kindness in my smile and nodded. He then asked me "How does it feel to meet your idol?" I replied "It feels great. I mean after my parents had died, I thought it was over and I was diagnosed with cancer but your performance on American idol made me smile and helped me pull through it believing anyone no matter who they are or act like or even what they have been through can still accomplish a dream. To tell you the truth I didn't come to the audition thinking I was going to win but know that I've meet you I believe anything could happen to me." With that he gave me a hug picking up my fragile little body and taking me off stage after the judges gave their two senses. Backstage I had a real conversation with Adam Lambert, witch that conversation we quickly became friends . "you’re cute" he would saying to me leavening with a bright red blush on my face. He and I giggled and laughed. I went through the rest of the show at the top of my game with my idol by my side , and when it came to the finally two Adam told one of the Judges "When He wins I'm going to ask him out." The last song I sand was Fever A song I loved as much as Adam, one that made me think of him I had realized after this time I had been spending with him I grew a deeper feeling for him then the fan boy crush I had had since I first saw him and now I wanted him for my own. The audience loved my voice and cheered for me as I finished. I went back stage and crossed my fingers in hope, Adam was there and put his arm around me. When the polls came in I won by a landside and Adam Kissed me for the first time we had met, it felt so right I couldn't stand but to kiss him back and with that he asked me to be with him and join him on stage at every show. I agree. He then lifted me up of my feet as he had done before and he took me off stage. At that point my dream had gone black and I thought I was finally wakening up and my alarm had gone off. I woke up and looked beside me to see Adam Lambert sleeping in the same bed as me and it wasn't my bed or room but it was his. I quickly turned off my alarm and grabbed my bag on the floor quickly getting dressed in a black mini skirt, a pair of fishnet stoking with a pair of black and white socks over the bottom half of my leg, I also throw on a Adam Lambent shirt and applied my makeup . I put on a wristband of his that reminded me of mine and hurried to his kitchen grabbing a pack of oatmeal and drinking it down when it was done. As I drank it Adam came up behind and wrapped his arms around my wait and placed his head on my shoulder witched fit so perfectly in the crease of my neck, he was wearing a pair of pajama pants, his chest without a shirt and his face naked from makeup, his hair laid flat on his face . he said sweetly "Babe where you going?" I answered "I have class today" "be careful" He said kissing my cheek " you never know what kind of people are out there." He lifted his arms off of me "Promise you'll come back to me." "I will" I told him. "why would I want to leave you my dearest" I then deep throated him and said good bye walking out the door. I got into my car and drove on in the cold morning, I was not paying attention and drove off the road into a tree after then everything went black once again and all I could hear was the beeping of my car that flipped over. With I awoken in my bed and realized my dream was nothing more than a dream with in a dream. From that point I got dressed just as I did in the dream and left the house with no fear of crashing.