I just took a test. Very accurate. Like, I take tests online all the time -- this is by far the most accurate test I've taken. Half the time the tests I take are very fake and I'm not much of a person to like these kinds of things. I LIKE THIS ONE. I'm amazed, yet confused.
I kind of understand what this is telling me yet, I don't. But, in darkred, I've left little notes in ()'s so that I can try and figure this out while you guys read over this.
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I kind of understand what this is telling me yet, I don't. But, in darkred, I've left little notes in ()'s so that I can try and figure this out while you guys read over this.
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At this particular time, you are feeling that you are or were unjustly and undeservedly treated and/or betrayed in your hopes and dreams. You feel that everything is against you. But look on the bright side for you are, whether you believe it or not, a survivor.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.
You have a high opinion of yourself. (On certain things, not everything.) It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offense.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, (Did I just get praised?) but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. (...I guess I do that.) You treat those who criticize you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
It is strange that the anxiety that you are experiencing at this time is of your own making simply because of your desire to be respected by your fellow man and with those whom you work with. (I just want respect overall. I can respect another persons opinion -- but if they can't respect mine then I wont respect theirs. Simple as that.) You are not satisfied. The normal congenial 'you' is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems.
You are very orderly, methodical and self sufficient. You demand and need the respect, recognition and understanding of all those who enter into your sphere on influence.
You have a high opinion of yourself. (On certain things, not everything.) It is perhaps because of this self-centredness that you become exasperated when you feel that your needs are misinterpreted by those around you. When this happens - and it does quite often - you feel that there is no-one that can understand the way you feel and it is because of this egocentric self that you are quick to take offense.
You are pretending that the situation around you doesn't matter, but the effort of trying to conceal your emotions and anxieties is resulting in untold stress. The existing situation is disagreeable. You feel unwanted and lonely and you would really like to associate with someone whose ideals are as high as your own. You want to be above the standard of mediocrity and this need to be needed and that need to need has almost become an obsession. You are trying to magnify the need into a compelling urge. You would really like to tell the world how great you are but no, you are holding back because you feel that your peers may treat you with contempt. This is a great pity because you have in fact a unique quality of character, (Did I just get praised?) but the continual restraint that you impose on yourself makes you suppress this need for others and you pretend you don't really care. (...I guess I do that.) You treat those who criticize you with contempt. However, to be honest, beneath this assumption of indifference you really long for the approval and esteem of others.
It is strange that the anxiety that you are experiencing at this time is of your own making simply because of your desire to be respected by your fellow man and with those whom you work with. (I just want respect overall. I can respect another persons opinion -- but if they can't respect mine then I wont respect theirs. Simple as that.) You are not satisfied. The normal congenial 'you' is becoming quite introverted. This is becoming increasingly more obvious because you seem to shy away from participating in everyday activities. You are refusing to allow yourself to become involved or to participate with others and it is the reluctance to communicate that is the inherent cause of your problems.
(I shy away from everything and I cry easily. Just thought I'd point that out as a last note.)
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Let me know what you guys think. . .I don't know whether to hate myself -- or just hide this away somewhere. . .
Let me know what you guys think. . .I don't know whether to hate myself -- or just hide this away somewhere. . .
