.. That life was easy? If ever somebody said that, she/he must be plain stupid or just crazy. Cuz life is hard.. difficult. I can barely handle mine. There is no way in... but there is also no way out. You are trapped in unless.. unless what? I dunno.
Kay. So I was always the one who had to start things between us. Depends.. sometimes its conversations, sometimes gift exchange for Christmas or what-so-ever. You rarely come on to me.. and even if you did, it was most probably because you were bored or you had nothing else to do.
It hurts when you treat me like this. Cause I love you so much but you treat me as if I'm some sort of.. entertainment or replacement for your boredom. Still, no matter how hard I hate you and how hard I bring myself to believe that fact, I still love you.
Why...? Why can't I just simply.. forget? Like all my close buddies advised me to. Maybe I'm just stubborn or something.. But this has gone on for quite a long while. And, in a way, I don't think its because I'm stubborn anymore. Maybe this feeling is genuine.
But no matter how real.. or how original .. this feeling is, I don't think it will ever.. and I mean EVER get answered.
Gosh.. I really hate myself.
--Rachel Tan
 Moonlight Nightingale · Sun Jan 03, 2010 @ 09:13am · 0 Comments |
