Some of my friends care about me WAY too much, and others don't seem to care at all.
And it's so weird too because the ones who seem to know me the best and can tell that something's bothering me are the guys. The ones that are supposed to only think of sex are the only ones listening to what I'm trying to say.
The girls seem so wrapped up in their own little affairs that they don't seem to be able to even remember my name. Yes I know that I'm upset with my problems too, but at least I know what's going on in their lives. And I do, becuase every single one of them somehow manages to spare the time to dump all their problems on me, but when I have to talk they magically have to run off somewhere. It's like they completely shut their eyes and ears to what's going on with and around me. Like they want to block me out completely.
Maybe I should take refuge with my guy friends. I know that they'll try their best to give the advise and attention I need, but there are some things that you just can't share as easily with a guy as you can with a girl.
Sigh. Oh whoah is me. God I sound pathetic, blabbering about my own little issues when there are a million people in this world with bigger problems than I have. I shouldn't think about my problems at all. They're so small and trivial. I'm just being selfish, I should stop thinking about my self so much and start worrying about others. That's it! No more! I have a perfect little life that's so well balanced that I can go and help others deal with their problems, never letting them know that there are things going on with me.
Oh! Wait a minute! That's what I already do!!!
I'm just so mad at how no one understands me, and how they all asume that everything is just fine and dandy. I'm sick of all the presumptions and expectations!!!! They're driving me up the flippin' wall!!!
At least one friend of mine is still sane, even though he's the most stressed out kid I have ever met. He's under as much pressure at home as I am. I wish that he'd always be their for me, but he's going away to college and there's nothing I can do about it. He acts the way my older brothers should act. I really do wish he was family, it feels like he is anyways.
Now that I've left off talking about him, I need to go hang out with him. Maybe he can help me with my math homework...
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Adventure most unto itself
The soul condemmed to be;
Attended by a Single Hound-
Its own identity
-Emily Dickinson
-Art by Pu-Sama
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Adventure most unto itself
The soul condemmed to be;
Attended by a Single Hound-
Its own identity
-Emily Dickinson
-Art by Pu-Sama
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even if your problems seem small compaired to others, they still affect you. dont try to ignore them. trust me.