life ain't gunna be easy. it never was, never will be, I was an idiot to think I would ever be happy so fast.
I'm gunna start being more mature about things. I've been acting stupidly for so long, even though thats kinda like my job XD but still, I'm going to try and not act like such a little kid anymore.
my art has been doing veeery well today, I don't know why o__o its kinda cool ^^
on the downside, I'd love to date again, but I have so many depressing thoughts about it now...like it'll never work, seeing as it seems I can't even hold a relationship with someone very similiar to me.
*sigh* I just gotta try and not think about it for now. I got a big project due on the 1st so I'll try and concentrate on that.
oh yeah, also on the downside, my birthdays on friday too. woop de freakin doo happy birthday to me...
me and my friend chelsea have just been talking about suicidal stuff in HSPA review math every day ^^ and I don't know what to do for halloween either. no one has plans, I doubt anyone would wanna do anything with me anyway. oh well, just gotta ask around anyway I suppose.
I guess I'll watch anime later or something. hopefully that'll cheer me up. I just haven't gotten a chance to watch any yet. I should watch Hetalia XD you all should watch axis powers hetalia! if you want to die of laughter ^^
oh yeah, I'm not really happy right now, I'm just in a good mood cuz my mom liked the picture I made on paint tool sai. I'm very moody when I'm sad, anything can mess up my mood, even if its something ridiculously small, like someone hitting me in the shoulder on accident in the hallway at school.
I gotta talk to Taye about this if she isn't reading it already. there's somethin I want to tell her if she keeps asking me all those questions crying
 Elemental guardian Zaria · Tue Sep 22, 2009 @ 11:52pm · 0 Comments |
