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say......I hate life and you!!!! I suggest leaving my presence if you wish to survive to tommorow........you're still here??? Hmmmmm I shall spare you....for now........you got lucky. I prefer to be alone as you've guessed.....I like the darkness hate the light and prefer to sit in the darkness playing a game.......now I suggest you leave now before u get....."hurt"....and by hurt....I mean dead........and by dead.....I mean tortured.....Good bye ~takes out knife~ Or Else.......-.-

I'm probably going to enter in the jounal every now and then( just so you know)

The Death Journal
(plz dont comment,im not a psycho and these are my personal thoughts, you can read though)

~It's strange... i feel alone in darkness.......it's like the darkness is taking control.......it's an odd feeling, it's so hard to describe.

~As every day goes by it feels like the darkness is taking more and more control of me.......the bloodthirst is overwhelming.......I wonder how the old me would think of what i am now......probably the same as everyone else......

~All my life everyone's the same....they hate me....think I'm insane......and gives me all the same look....it's this dark look that ices over my heart....that feeds the darkness.....no matter where I look they all stare at me the same....like i shouldn't be here.......like i shouldn't be alive......

~It's strange.....it's like the darkness is taking it's own personality..... im not like it at all.....i remember how i was before it came........silent....quiet....and still alone........that was until the darkness came.......

~After it came everything changed....... I started having this anger issue....when it comes it's weird....I barely remember......people say that I have an evil look when it happens...... it's my body and yet.....I've never seen it.....who....what......is it?.....

~It's getting stronger as every day goes by...... the loneliness feeds it but....I guess you wouldn't know what that's like....to be alone.....no one to trust......I don't even think I can trust myself anymore......

~Who am I?..... I don't even know myself....... this darkness...... it makes me feel like im not even human anymore......just a sad soul being poisoned by a darkness........

~Am I human?.....to me i don't think so anymore.......the bloodthirst I get from this darkness........it's like that of a demon....the want to kill......the need to destroy.......it's not human......

~This darkness in me......how long will it take for it to take control completly........what will happen when it does?..........will I lose all signs of humanity?.......or have I already lost it?.......

~Im getting so confused..........am i worthy enough to live????All my life i felt worthless.......that i deserve nothing but death and despair.........but for once......i feel like i did something good........is this a dream?......will I just wake up again and continue being what i was before? a demon? or is this real........and i am worthy enough to survive a little longer?.........it seems to good to be true..........i feel...................happy.

~o.k. happy feeling gone...........now i feel like it wasn't that big.............. i think that someone else would have done it even if i wasn't there so my doing it doesn't matter..........i dont deserve to live T^T...........plz end my worthlessness........plz kill me.........

~........Why does everyone always hate me.........am i destined to be an outcast forever?.......Im starting to think so...........i don't want to be alone............ but I know I'm destined to be..............

~humans are pathetic lonely creatures that seek nothing but power and self happiness.............humans cannot do anything without expecting something of equal or greater value to themselves..........humans will continue to live on killing off anything that they see as an obstacle to the betterment of themselves............. humans only goal in life is to eventually become a said perfect creature above all from continus evolving and taking from those beneath them............... even humans may not realize this fact but it is still true in all of their pathetic bodies.............humans seek out at least something in life and do things to gain it..............if they give love it is only to gain happiness and love in return.............if they try to help others that seems like they do it for nothing....its a lie............they only do it from the thought of themselves getting some kind of inner joy and the though of them getting a reward of entrance into heaven................ this pathetic race does not deserve to live........this race doesnt deserve anything not even sweet blissful death ..............