Hmm.... I've never had a journal or a diary or anything like that but I guess I'll give it a shot... So I guess I'll spill my heart out.... Ugh... These past few weeks I've been in a bunch of mood swings and s**t... Blaine has gotten suicidal. He says he slit his throat but I don't totally believe his sob stories. It's getting really hard to believe anything he says now because of his big brother, Cameron... He toyed with my emotions and I don't take things like that very well... I think the only way he'll be happy again(Anytime soon) will be if I go out with him again... But I think we would only be good friends. AT THE LEAST. Blaine, I understand that you love me and I love you too. Just not in that way anymore. I really liked you before all the drama. I just don't want to give you another chance because I've lost my trust in you. I'll be your friend but nothing else. I'm sorry but I don't think that you can change my mind... I haven't been treating you like s**t. You're just taking this the wrong way. So please stop acting like this. Okay... Now that I've gotten that off of my chest I feel a lot better... My besties that got me through this are ShadowBlazer5(Mr T), Desoto Rampage(Edward), and xWafflezgorawrx(Wafflez). Thanks... I heart you guys...
Love,
Nikki
Nikki
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