I've notice that people check my Journal and profile every once in a while, Thats probly a sign of there boredom, Or they just miss me.. Who Knows. Maybe One day they will read this, Even if its accidently, I don't actually care, If they read it. stare
It seems that this year good things and bad things has been happening, but there was more bad things then good. And I just wanna talk about it, Since Im about to scream and go more insane that I am right now.
Fact 1:
Doesnt it bother you that every time your playing something interesting, Somebody comes to your room and start to bother you about something, Or yell at you of something you probly dont even know about? Well Yeah, I get yelled at alot, From my family, Mostly By My Mom, Maybe shes just mad, But she just pays it on me, Then after her is My Sis... She just comes in my room and start to yell like if she was having a heart attack or something and when I ask her she says "Well, You don't care.." Like, I wouldnt bother asking if I dont care.. stare I know you probly have the same problems, But I just gotta write this down somewhere to feel better.
Fact 2:
Do you ge those times when your just hanging in rally, And some person comes and starts to blame you and calling you names and crap, Just because hes pissed of or sad, Or even lonely, And he/she blames on me for no friggin' reason? First of all, What there expecting me to do , Go on my knees and beg for him/her to forgive..? Tsk, In the first place, I dun even got anything to do with it. rolleyes But ofc, Who else there gonna pay it on, They pay it On YOU, Because they want you to feel bad. That just isnt right. For example, This person comes to you and start yelling of how his/her life is such full of pain and stuff, And then he/she thinks that his or hers life was more tought... Well do you even know about my life? Do you know about my past? How would you know if my life was good or not... talk2hand
Fact 3 :
Pfft, Soo yeah I was sitting in a rally with some "Pals", I dunno if I should call them that, Because it seems there not that anymore, [Yeah, If your reading this, You know that Im talking about Ya. stare ] Soo, Yeah, I was sitting in this rally with 3 friends, And the rally started to get full all of the sudden, I jus tnotice that 2 of my buddys says something and poofs off somewhere, Maybe they probly wanted to have a private time for there self, Soo yeah they leave us in rally and then I posted in my status box "Thanks for ditching us" And a few minutes later one of them says that there were gonna go to there rally, Blah Blah Blah. Well What the Hell, There was like 50 people in rally, How could I have readed that... Still My other friend that was with me didnt catch the message either, Im not asking them to go to my face and repeat it, They could at least send me a PM if they notice Im not coming .. Thats what a normal person would do..I forgive one of them, At least shes taking her time for me to forgive her And she Really Means it . But the other one doesnt seems to care not even... -Censored word-. But who cares, Its probly not the first time they ditch me, Well right now, Im VERY mad at them [One more then the other], And hes probly thinking Im going to forgive him this time, Well hell no. stressed
Fact 4 :
Another thing that bothers me, I do these favours and never get a "Thank You" Back, I've always been a person that says "Thank you" "Please" "Your welcome", Yeah my parents tought me that. But yeah Ok, I was Hanging out in rally [Yeah, Im ALWAYS in rally] and this girl comes asking for my friend that was AFK, At first I dint answer her, Because I tho' her other friend would. Soo then I finally said "Hes AFK." And she only says "Well, YOU COULD AT LEAST TOLD ME!" I was like... "Whats your problem...?" I told you did I? Of course that doesnt count for her... Tsk, Sometimes It just bothers me. confused
Fact 5 :
Do you get those type of Pms saying "Lets hang out!"? Ok, I always hang out with people 'Cuz they ask me, But theres times, That when I hang out with them, they tell me "Wow, Your SOO Boring!" Well, What you want me to do? Dress like a Clown and entertain you? Or Maybe do a Bback flip or something?. I was with this friend, I don't know him much, Soo he invited me to hang out, And then he tells me about how boring it is, And then he says "Your soo boring, Im leaving!" Then he poofs, Im like "What the...?" Is that even right? eek
Fact 6 :
Those people that are on your buddy list and a few days later, Your off there list, Whats with the "Yeah, Your a good friend" But like when they turn there back there like "Pfft, She will never notice" Well, I know who deleted me and who didnt, They probly tho' I quitted or I deleted them, When I didnt. Thats what I call FAKE FRIENDS. They lyed to me all this time, But Hell. Both people can play this game. rofl
Fact 7 :
You guys probly notice how my status bar says stuff related to how depressed I am, Well, There crap going on in my life, Soo Im oftne depressed. You guys should just ignore, And not start blablering about how Emo I am and stuff. Half of the people on gaia ignores me, But ofc, When Im depressed they have to talk bad about me on my back. Can't they just say it to the face? No they cant, They go to a friends rally and say "My friend is always depressed" I got reasons, Don't think I enjoy being depressed, 'Cus I DONT. They also type in Status bar "Wow, Everybody depressed today..." Well Geez, You never been depressed? Or are you soo Happy in your life, And you don't got any problems? Well Duh, Everybody gets problems. Thats why People say that Life sucks. Because if they dont get any problems they would be against the thing about how Lame life is. neutral
Fact 8 :
Sometimes I got the feeling that everybody depends on me, Like "Amy, WIll you do this for me please?" or "Amy, I hpe you do this for me, Since your a good friend", And Im thinking "Is this all A Lie?" Why people even depend on me, There probly thinking, "Well Amy will take care of all this..." Oh really?, One of these days, Im gonna stop being nice, Im tired of doing everything for people, And not getting anything back... They will have to ask someone else, Or do it there selfs, 'Cus Its not fair... I almost never depend on any one, I mean like Rarely, gonk Well, This fact hurts more then angers me...
It seems that this year good things and bad things has been happening, but there was more bad things then good. And I just wanna talk about it, Since Im about to scream and go more insane that I am right now.
Fact 1:
Doesnt it bother you that every time your playing something interesting, Somebody comes to your room and start to bother you about something, Or yell at you of something you probly dont even know about? Well Yeah, I get yelled at alot, From my family, Mostly By My Mom, Maybe shes just mad, But she just pays it on me, Then after her is My Sis... She just comes in my room and start to yell like if she was having a heart attack or something and when I ask her she says "Well, You don't care.." Like, I wouldnt bother asking if I dont care.. stare I know you probly have the same problems, But I just gotta write this down somewhere to feel better.
Fact 2:
Do you ge those times when your just hanging in rally, And some person comes and starts to blame you and calling you names and crap, Just because hes pissed of or sad, Or even lonely, And he/she blames on me for no friggin' reason? First of all, What there expecting me to do , Go on my knees and beg for him/her to forgive..? Tsk, In the first place, I dun even got anything to do with it. rolleyes But ofc, Who else there gonna pay it on, They pay it On YOU, Because they want you to feel bad. That just isnt right. For example, This person comes to you and start yelling of how his/her life is such full of pain and stuff, And then he/she thinks that his or hers life was more tought... Well do you even know about my life? Do you know about my past? How would you know if my life was good or not... talk2hand
Fact 3 :
Pfft, Soo yeah I was sitting in a rally with some "Pals", I dunno if I should call them that, Because it seems there not that anymore, [Yeah, If your reading this, You know that Im talking about Ya. stare ] Soo, Yeah, I was sitting in this rally with 3 friends, And the rally started to get full all of the sudden, I jus tnotice that 2 of my buddys says something and poofs off somewhere, Maybe they probly wanted to have a private time for there self, Soo yeah they leave us in rally and then I posted in my status box "Thanks for ditching us" And a few minutes later one of them says that there were gonna go to there rally, Blah Blah Blah. Well What the Hell, There was like 50 people in rally, How could I have readed that... Still My other friend that was with me didnt catch the message either, Im not asking them to go to my face and repeat it, They could at least send me a PM if they notice Im not coming .. Thats what a normal person would do..I forgive one of them, At least shes taking her time for me to forgive her And she Really Means it . But the other one doesnt seems to care not even... -Censored word-. But who cares, Its probly not the first time they ditch me, Well right now, Im VERY mad at them [One more then the other], And hes probly thinking Im going to forgive him this time, Well hell no. stressed
Fact 4 :
Another thing that bothers me, I do these favours and never get a "Thank You" Back, I've always been a person that says "Thank you" "Please" "Your welcome", Yeah my parents tought me that. But yeah Ok, I was Hanging out in rally [Yeah, Im ALWAYS in rally] and this girl comes asking for my friend that was AFK, At first I dint answer her, Because I tho' her other friend would. Soo then I finally said "Hes AFK." And she only says "Well, YOU COULD AT LEAST TOLD ME!" I was like... "Whats your problem...?" I told you did I? Of course that doesnt count for her... Tsk, Sometimes It just bothers me. confused
Fact 5 :
Do you get those type of Pms saying "Lets hang out!"? Ok, I always hang out with people 'Cuz they ask me, But theres times, That when I hang out with them, they tell me "Wow, Your SOO Boring!" Well, What you want me to do? Dress like a Clown and entertain you? Or Maybe do a Bback flip or something?. I was with this friend, I don't know him much, Soo he invited me to hang out, And then he tells me about how boring it is, And then he says "Your soo boring, Im leaving!" Then he poofs, Im like "What the...?" Is that even right? eek
Fact 6 :
Those people that are on your buddy list and a few days later, Your off there list, Whats with the "Yeah, Your a good friend" But like when they turn there back there like "Pfft, She will never notice" Well, I know who deleted me and who didnt, They probly tho' I quitted or I deleted them, When I didnt. Thats what I call FAKE FRIENDS. They lyed to me all this time, But Hell. Both people can play this game. rofl
Fact 7 :
You guys probly notice how my status bar says stuff related to how depressed I am, Well, There crap going on in my life, Soo Im oftne depressed. You guys should just ignore, And not start blablering about how Emo I am and stuff. Half of the people on gaia ignores me, But ofc, When Im depressed they have to talk bad about me on my back. Can't they just say it to the face? No they cant, They go to a friends rally and say "My friend is always depressed" I got reasons, Don't think I enjoy being depressed, 'Cus I DONT. They also type in Status bar "Wow, Everybody depressed today..." Well Geez, You never been depressed? Or are you soo Happy in your life, And you don't got any problems? Well Duh, Everybody gets problems. Thats why People say that Life sucks. Because if they dont get any problems they would be against the thing about how Lame life is. neutral
Fact 8 :
Sometimes I got the feeling that everybody depends on me, Like "Amy, WIll you do this for me please?" or "Amy, I hpe you do this for me, Since your a good friend", And Im thinking "Is this all A Lie?" Why people even depend on me, There probly thinking, "Well Amy will take care of all this..." Oh really?, One of these days, Im gonna stop being nice, Im tired of doing everything for people, And not getting anything back... They will have to ask someone else, Or do it there selfs, 'Cus Its not fair... I almost never depend on any one, I mean like Rarely, gonk Well, This fact hurts more then angers me...
