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So I'm moving from the town that i have spent 15 years of my life in
I'm 16
well the ppl I have grown to know, like and dislike are all going to be be hind me.
Well for the past 3 days I've been arguing with My BF Oscar and now with an old friend of mine Yali that is now tuning into an ex friend of mine.
The whole Problem is about weed...seriously
now that I think about it its redicoulus
Its all about my decition on smoking pot or not
Well If I say no my old friend Yali gets mad and blames my BF Oscar
If I say yes My BF Oscar gets mad and blames my old friend Yali...
I know the solution is simple
Drop the friend and not smoke pot
Drop the BF and smoke pot
or split my life and be with my BF and still be friends with her
well realy the answer is so clear
but that doesn't alway mean we know what to chose
I know it seems like my BF Oscar cares about me he doesn't want me to ruin my life
and that my friend Yali is only holding me back and im going to ruin my life
but remeber one thing
I'm leaving from the city in 18 days....
what if spending time with my friend means smoking pot...
what if spending time with my BF means giving up a friend....
realy Yali has been my friend for...3 years
she is probably the most air headed funny hispanic you can meet
and im talking about when she isn't high or when she didn't smoke...
why would i give up a friend that has kept all my secrets..
that has been there for me when I did cry
stuck up for me when ppl put me down...
realy they both are making me make decisions i don't want to
putting me in positions that make me unconfertable
and realy a friend or a BF should never do that
they are the ppl we usualy turn to when we are sad or when we are unhappy....
but now its like i can't turn to anyone...
cause one thinks she is a pothead
and the other one thinks he is controling me....
when all reality they both are...
I'm not angrey im not sad I'm just curious
on how you can tell some one you love them and not accept them for the decitions they make even if it means
being so high you helousnate or not wanting to take a hit
cause you don't want to feek out because you think some one is banging on the walls...
why can't I just have both without the fussing and fighting...
but hey when I move
I'll be able to make my own decitions and not worry about ppl yelling at me for wanting or not wantting to smoke...

BTW yesterday I desided to not smoke anymore...
My friend called my BF in the middle of work and tryed telling him off
She hung up on me because she was going to take a hit of the blunt
she wont pick up my calls and yells at me for not "knowing" who her drug dealer is
when she doesn't evenknow who my BF is...
realy she was a good friend but I guess all things got to end....