There's a deep problem with my brain...
No matter what I do... If I know someone hates me- Someone who I care for, If I know they hate me... I lose sleep, I feel like crying all day, I feel incomplete and never hungry. I lose weight... Which, in this case, bad. I feel like there's a severe flaw in my physical appearance or something wrong with me in general... I know it seems a bit... Stupid seems to be the right word for it...
But my brain is odd.
Most of the time... Ugh, I sound like a pansy... I need to be either away from the problem or I need someone to be with me at certain times to prevent breakdowns...
Which has been my reasonings for trying to leave the city to my hometown all week. Which hasn't been working out due to my mother. My mother seems to be caring more about my baby sister than me at all lately, which I do not blame her for but still, all the same.
I've been trying and failing.
Well... I guess that explains what's been wrong with me lately, eh?
Or maybe it doesn't. Who knows?
I just know I tried explaining to the best of my abilities at... 6:04 am..
I'm amazed I'm not tired.. Or misspelling anything at the moment. Or just using text speak- though it irritates me greatly... --;
No matter what I do... If I know someone hates me- Someone who I care for, If I know they hate me... I lose sleep, I feel like crying all day, I feel incomplete and never hungry. I lose weight... Which, in this case, bad. I feel like there's a severe flaw in my physical appearance or something wrong with me in general... I know it seems a bit... Stupid seems to be the right word for it...
But my brain is odd.
Most of the time... Ugh, I sound like a pansy... I need to be either away from the problem or I need someone to be with me at certain times to prevent breakdowns...
Which has been my reasonings for trying to leave the city to my hometown all week. Which hasn't been working out due to my mother. My mother seems to be caring more about my baby sister than me at all lately, which I do not blame her for but still, all the same.
I've been trying and failing.
Well... I guess that explains what's been wrong with me lately, eh?
Or maybe it doesn't. Who knows?
I just know I tried explaining to the best of my abilities at... 6:04 am..
I'm amazed I'm not tired.. Or misspelling anything at the moment. Or just using text speak- though it irritates me greatly... --;
