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Okay I just recently realized that im changing in attitude and i HATE it. They say change is guud this change is bad. I'm not my extremely perverted fun wild self anymore. Im more serious and sad more often. Always bored now too i remember when me and cuddlybear first met and for liek three months i would get so wild and insane around him, in a guud way. Now its like HIIII then boreed.........

Thought I think thats rlly bad and probably part of God's idea to make me mission to cuddlybear harder. I dont know how I mean it is messing with me. Ive lost anger, all of it has build up to much and turned into deep darkness in my head.

Thought even so like I said before im going to break out of this barrier God has me in. I can already feel myself returning to me, I feel that fun me comin back slowly. I went away for awhile but im COMING BACK BABY! mrgreen

Sorry God but trying to change me was not so smart, maybe later ill let ya but for now cuddlybear himself said it he needs the fun me, *cough* wild me.
Well I needa think - or think less liek my old self W/E! IM HAPPY, b4 i was sad cuz everyone in my class looked so dreadfully tired or depressed but its changed i feel myself breaking through and the depressed me is going to vanish forever and hopefully EVER