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right. so, first the backround story.

Opal is someone i have known for 3 years now. she was addicted to Coccain, Smack, Weed, Alchahol, Cutting, etcetera. she had an abusive father, her mom left with her brother, and she was constantly being rped and blackmailed and getting into terrible cheating messes (both cheating and being cheated on). so, i fixed her up. the one person i have ever been able to realy do much any good for. she had also for a short time had contact with a military mercenary who had his snipers take out her current rapist's posse, and then i had her go into a foster agency. she had been passed from family to family while i would talk to her every night. i made her go cold-turkey on all her habbits, and i would tell her poetry until she fell asleep at night. she started telling me i ws like an angel to her, called my big brother... i nursed this girl for 2 years. she was perfectly ok.

well, i had not kept much contact with her after that. i'd call her everyonce in a while, but it would be MONTHS apart.... whenever i would call her everything seemed to be ok... i'd always ask for a check-up, a staus report... she never told me about hergetting back into her habbits, though she never actualy lied to me... she had stayed sober for a long time, but she had gotten back into it last year and i didn't know.

anyway, so recently i had called her for her birthday, and she was surprise dthat i had called. well, sh started asking me random questions, and one of them was if i had ever thought of her as more than a sister. i told hr, yes. because i had for almost as long as i had known hr but never told her before and never acted on it. she told me she had thought of me sexually also since pretty much as long as she knew me. that the reason she started calling me her brother wa sto get closer to me. well, the more we talked, the more came out. she told me she had gotten back into all the bad habbits, that she joined the Bloods, that they are trying to make her a prostitute, that she's been letting herself be raped again...

i havn' stopped talking to her since, i called every night, and most days. i was gone all weekend at my friend's house, and i was talking to her.


now we need the backround story for Rebecca.

earlier this year i had met Rebecca and ended up claiming her as my Slave. we realy hit it off, we were getting along so well. she was planning on moving back to California next year where she was from before. she was gonna get a 3-room apartment with two of her other friends, and however it happened (i can't remember clealy anymore) plans were made for me to move in with her. she ended up getting some Slaves of her own, Kimi (a spoiled brat who wanted me to also be his Master), and Angel (who became also her girlfriend). so then there was a question about sleeping arrangements. i want to have everything decided beforehand, and she wants to blow it off as long as possible.

her and i had still been doing so good, we were both comfortable with being open about our emotions, and our polyamory... she claime dto find it flattering when i display how jealous i can get, as long as i don't let it get out of hand. not a problem for me realy.

then, some misunderstanding between me, her and Sydney. she took it as a betrayal of her trust, and so she was pissed at me for a long time. it was eventually settled and everything. but then there had still not been any sexual anything between us. i dealt with it, i never mentione dit.

well, it was a week till she had to go to Fanime, and she was asking me about if i remembered when i told her that she can sleep with others if she got permission from me first. and i told her, yeah of course. so she asked me about someone called Ricky, a co-worker of hers. i asked her if she realy wanted to skeep with him, and she told me "well, i'm not 100% sre yet... hell, not even 50%!" so i told her that in that case i have no problem saying NO! ... she flipped out. she started going on me about how i'm such a hypocrit, blah blah blah, all teh girls i sleep with, blah blah blah (bear in mind i hadn't had sex in longer than i could remember at that point). all this until i gave in. but we talked about it more, me explaining my side, and everything. she hasn't realy appologized for any of it...

well, about 10 days later hadn't been talking toher much since she was getting ready for Fanime, and at Fanime... when it had finally ended and she had only the rest of the week in Cali before shed head ack to Cortez Colorado, she called and had appologized for being gone so long, explained that she'd still not be able to talk often for a while... then asked me about if i remember Ricky and that i let her sleep with him. i told her yeah, and she said "well yah, i have been." and i got jealous of course, told her she didn't need to tell me, and that got her all upset. but yeah. we talked it out, i appologized, and then i asked more about him, and turns out he's been very respectfull of my owndership of her, and she hasn't let him be dominant at all. so yeah. that was good.

but thing is she's been with this ricky guy ever since. it's been weeks later. she'd finally had some time to be on the computer to talk to s, said she was going to end her break because she misses us and wants to b ethere for us. i had some issues with getting computer time to talk, and i missed a night, though i did call, and tell her i realy wanted to talk to her before i left for my friend's house for teh weekend. i got on the next night, and she ended up signing out without warning after almost no talk at all. i spoke with Angel and Kimi and kept them company, but it was getting way late after a while, and she still hadn't come back online so i asked the others if she had said anything before she went. Kimi said he didn't know, but that she might have just gone to bed because she had someone crashing over (obviously Ricky). and so i went to bed. she apperrently calle dme three times that night to tell me that she'd gotten disconnected and that her internet wouldn't work again all nght, and to tell me to let Kimi and Angel know. i never heard the phone ring.

i left in the morning and hadn't been able to get online. when i came home i found out that Rebecca had apperrently calld 7 more times while i was gone. she was pissed as all hell. i had went to my sister's boyfriend's house with them and my Slave Eva to swim, and they told me about my calls from Rebecca in th ecar.

i called Rebecca later that afternoon, she was at work so she told me to call back later, and that she was realy pissed at me. i called her later at night, and she said she was mad at me. explained to me about all the calls, and the getting disconnected. i appologized, an explained myself, and told her why i didn't get the calls, and that i was away at Dallas' house. she claims i never told her. i didn't argue it long, but then she said she had to go anyway because she had Ricky over and they hae been looking at new houses in Cortez, because she was gonna stay in Cortez a little longer than was planned before, and was gonna move in with Ricky instead of staying at her parents' house any longer. i was realy upset about that,because i needed to talk to her about Opal. but she had to go. so she said she'd have to talk later. i asked if se wa sgonna be online or call later, and she just said, yeah, maybe. so i said talk later, and goodnight. she never did get online or call.


next is teh backround story about Eva.

about 3 or 4 year ago Eva had a crush on my brother eli. she nevr realy got over him. he was never interested in her. she has always been the kind of girl to purposely do stupid things just to get in trouble or be stupid. also, she had an obsession with telling everyone different versions of the same stories, with different emotions, different ways she feels, desires, whatever. she is in short, a compulsive liar. she has alwaysbeen this way, and still is.

last year she had agreed to be my Slave. she kept displaying an interest in me, because i was the only one in my fmily still talking to her. she has been so dizzying, because she'd tell me whatever i want to hear, or things i don't want to hear but that would get me to act certain ways... she has been manipulating me and playing me. and she'd tell shanti a vrsion of teh story where she regrets it, that she thinks i'm creapy and wierd. and she'd tell eli a vrsion where nothing happened at all. and she'd tell other people things lik i am forcing it on her. and other peopel a version where i'm lik ethe best thing ever. you get the idea, right? well, at my sister's boyfriend's house Eva had been doing this two-faced thing like always, and telling me she was fine, no matter how many times i asked her whats up. she woudln't answer. and i would ask her if she is feeling uncomfortabel about me, she would say no and just smile and kiss me. but then she'd slip off away from me after a moment and whisper to shanti. who then secretly tattled to me what Eva was saying. that i am making her awkward, and that she wants to not be my slave anymore.

i've honestly had enough of it becaus eit never ends. so i am going to cut her loose.

then, the backround story for Alice.

Alice is someone who over a year ago i was with, but i abused very terribly. she ended up hooking up with this guy Noah, because she was pissed at me, and then disapeared. told me not to contact her ever again. and worse, she said this with a new email account called allisonlovesnoah@gmail.com

so for a year i had hated myself for the abusive a*****e i was. i had shaped up. and she comes back a couple months ago, and things ended up getting complex. because she explained everything... she had an amnesia, didn't remeber being angry at me last year. didb;t remeber the email she sent me telling me to never talk to her again. she realy did love noah, and claimed the same of me. and etcetera. she has had so many othr relationships too. she turns out to be diagnosed with suicidal depression, bipolr, dependancy dissorder, vitamin c and calcium difficiencies.... she kept threatening to kill herself if i didn't come back for her.... it was all so confusing...

today her and i broke up. and luckily, she seems able to be ok. i dunno that we'll ever talk again, she is pretty pissed off... all of this because of my need to be there for Opal. Alice has before told me it's unfair for me to have friends, that she should be enough for me... stare grr...