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I'm so mad at myself right now. I can't believe I don't remember. I mean I was there. RIGHT THERE. It was happening. But noo I have to be stupid and not remember. It only seems like a dream. Not even real. Why? Why does it feel like this when I can still feel the touch? Why does it seem like my mind is trying to avoid it? Why, when I talk to him, he is always right, but I deny it? Why can't I stop thinking about it? Why do I want to remember it so badly?
Why won't it let me....?
Why did she have to walk in? Why couldn't we be outside? Why did I wait until so long? Why don't I want it to be Sunday, so I can do it again, but better?
I want to talk to them. I want to talk to my friends about it... but,
She would criticise me,
She now likes him,
He has alot to deal with,
She has guy problems on his own,
and Him... I want to talk to him... but he won't reply.