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I keep hurting people who care about me and people who I care about. I care about her but she loved me. I didn't mean to hurt her. I really didn't. I don't mean to hurt anyone but I keep hurting the people I care about most. The people who actually mean something to me. I might as well have stabbed her in the back and ripped out her hard and threw it on the ground and spit on it. I can't stop crying. I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't want to hurt you and I didn't plan on hurting you. I do care for you but I know this is way past the line of what anybody who really cares should or would do. But I do care. I'm the worst kind of person. I care and yet I end up doing this s**t. You'll hate me now. You'll never be able to forgive me. Hell, I don't forgive me and I wouldn't forgive me if I were you.
I care and it hurts me that I hurt you. I'm worse than horrible. I'm worse than the people who hurt others for fun. I messed up again and you got hurt because of it... I'm so sorry...