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"Life, Love, Loathe and Loss."

There was a time in my early high school years where I was in a deep depression, and I felt the undeniable urge to write what I felt, explain the thoughts screaming in my mind, lurking in the corners. Of course, I eventually broke out of that state, and still am in possession of "the papers". I added a new entry page just the other day for fun, but for now, lets start this off from page 1...

"Funny as to why I would bother writing such useless scrawlings. Almost as if it's on impulse... The situation at hand is mediocre at best, however with the usual snide remarks from others...me? An outcast, a misfit of THEM? Perhaps I've chosen to be isolated from them, but shouldn't you be content on wondering what agitated once content recesses of my mind? Fools! You could never comprehend the rejection i feel, whilst THEY carry on with their useless, short lives. But I suppose it is the will of emotions, some more than others, to act soully on..."Impulse"...
The depth of me isn't purely sight, more sight of MIND. Maybe I just want to be heard, and close to understanding the dark void i feel inside. What I wouldn't give to, for a moment, only to be engulfed in wild imagination, and not to open my eyes and stare at the dull faces. Love, hate, it's all the same! Lies! You don't understand, only wish to! But... Where does wishing get you then?
To be carefree...What of me, never touched by another human being, as to them being filled with false love and lies. As you slip past, you receive the faint tittering and insults from THEM, who should never learn my inner self. But fear can play a powerful role, you know... Like a festering wound, the anger and pain from played-out emotions fuel the hate inside."

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