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oh how my soul is wrenching, trying to escape.
as my thirst for love continues to grow,
my heart also begins to grow cold with sorrow. once a liquid pool lapping at my heart, it has frozen.
my once flesh heart has turned to rock, hard and jagged.
and now i find that the object of my desire has found a lover already, one strong, and interesting, and attractive.
so much so that i can only hope that she is happy, content with the way things are and willing to accept my freindship.
as i think i wonder if id be happyer numb to this pain or more miserable. i cant imagine wanting it, without experianceing it and reflecting upon the sensation.
but i must admit that without this heartache joy would be simple and non important, becuse to enjoy somthing you need a contrast. wich gives me hope, and perhaps one day i'll find my person for me and we will enjoy many common interests.
for now though my stone heart bleeds alone, in frozen tears wich hold it still.
if not found soon my soul mate will find another, as my heart will have closed and i will slowly disappear into the abyss.
or perhaps, not.
even though i feel like this now, the rays of hope will pry my heart open and allow it to beat in the thawed tears, a mere puddle evaporating for a long while.
becuse pain is a fleeting thing, even if ive known it for so long