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Been reading back on the journal entries I've made through the years and I must say, thanks.

I guess I didn't realize how much I was loved until I read back over everything and looked at all the comments left behind.



Naeryn: I know we lost touch after I left Pern, but I still consider you one of my friends and I'll be right here if you ever need me.

Gaia-chan: *glomps* You've been one of my inspirations for heaven knows how long. I don't think I would have been even a fraction of the person I am today if it weren't for you. Thank you so very much.

Niki: You are never allowed to lose touch with me got it? Married, moved, even if you die, I forbid you to disappear on me! ^~ Honestly, you're probably my best friend, co-conspirator, and someone I look forward to knowing throughout eternity (and you may reassure Distraction that it is in a purely platonic way).

Jyuko: You never really posted but you've had an impact on me. While I don't know if our relationship will ever be put back together or even if it's worth it, I will attempt to remember you fondly.

Leia: You are perhaps the single most influential person in my life and yet.... our relationship was at it's best when there was thousands of miles between us. I know I've hurt you, badly, and I pay everyday for that mistake. The feeling of a soul slowly shattering.... I had thought that you would be the one person I could always count on to be there, despite the ups and downs. I know I've said that it feels like you didn't care about me and to a very large extent that was true. My idealism still said that "She's your sister, even if she doesn't care she'll still be around." But with you gone... my world has been spinning even further off it's axis. For a very long time, you were my equilibrium, my center. And only in the past few years have I been trying to find my own self. It caused a lot of drama and I'm sorry. I want you to know that you may hate me, but I will still cherish you. You've been... You've been everything to me at times and to know that I was responsible for shattering it all will haunt me for the rest of my life. I want to tell you, I'm so sorry and I'm so thankful. Sorry for everything, and thank you, thank you, thank you for the years that you were there. For fighting my demons, and shoring me up. For opening my eyes to new worlds and dragging me out of my self-imposed shell. I love you sis. I always will even if it seems like I don't. Never, never doubt that.