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Will love ever come to me next? *sighs*
I no im not the prettiest, or the smartest girl in the world i no that for a fact. But it just kills me to see all of my friends to be in a relationship, and me always being the third... fifth.. seventh wheel ( Depend's on how many couples I hang out with XD) But the reason im writing to you is that im trying to find an answer onto why I cant get into a relationship. I like a few guys at my skool. But they only see me as friends. All of my guy buddies say that I should get a boyfriend, and I always answer ' If you find a guy that likes me, then go for it.'
*puts head down on the pillow*
And another friend of mine, she told me just not to look for a guy right now, wait till a guy finds you...Haa.. Well I have been wating patiently and nuthing....
But my friends, a couple of days ago I recieved a reply to the honesty box on face book. It read and I quote " I think of you assss...A really really cool person. I would for sureee date you." Un quote. That made my heart jump. I was soo happy... I told my friend Taylor and he was so excited for me, he is helping me solve the mystery. Only the thing that killed me was the fact that it was annonomous.. I was all like 'Ohhh ********!' it bothered me a lot. It also got me thinking that maybe it was just a stoopid prank.. *curls up in corner*
My goal is to at least have one boyfriend during my highschool years.. or what I have left of them (2) Im not saying the guy has to be perfect and we dont have to live happily ever after. It's just that I feel soo left out.
Is it because of the way I look? It could be it.. Never the less im working on my image for grade 11 a whole new wardrobe. A fresh start. Hopfully everything will change.......