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Ya know what really sucks and is quite the downer? When I've been on Gaia this long and I haven't really been able to do anything. I'll admit, I'm not on Gaia just because it's fun, or because the people, or that I entirely like it, all those are reasons for being here, but I also like to be here because I want to help people and feel like I'm doing that within my power (call it an ego booster, I dunno). So seeing as I'm not a mod or a helper so I can't really help clean the forums, and I'm not one of the rich Gaians by ANY stretch of the imagination, the only thing left to do is to put out information, make guides, faq's, lists, what have you, but to help out other Gaians that don't know and possibly in the process learn things myself. But what really is a downer, when I've tried to do this time and time again, and every single time after I work hard towards my goal and actually complete it, I get completely butted out by some one that comes along later, and whatever it was that I did/am working on gets ignored reguardless of what I try to do, and you know what else? It just makes me want to give up, I just want to stop trying to help Gaia because it seems just really really not worth my time, particularly when there are so many people that seem that much more qualified to do so rather than myself.

But like said in a previous entry, I've been on this damn forum for over a year and a half, and you ******** are gonna have to ban me before you see ther day I sit back and say I'm never coming back to Gaia, I refuse to take that I've wasted 1 year 7 months and 20 days of my life for nothing. I'm as stubborn as a mule and as hoarse as its father and even if I fail on every single project and goal on Gaia, I'm gonna keep going, and when I feel that I can do nothing more, I'ma go out in a bang, but don't worry, that won't be any time soon. believe it!

booyah.