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I hate me
I really hate myself sometimes. I say the stupidest things. Then I just want to kill myself, except that I know that won't work either. I should be on anti-depressants, but the one I'm on, it JUST MAKES THINGS WORSE. What am I supposed to do? I just don't know anything anymore. And now, I've just done something absolutely moronic. I took oh...3 and 1/4 times the dosage of my antidepressant. So, we'll see how that goes. Probably not as badly as I might hope. Actually, since I dnp't want to end up in a psych facility, I don't really want anything bad to happen. I just wish the damn thing would work! But that's too much to ask, isn't it? But that's not the point. The point is that I'm a horrible person and I don't deserve even the few friends I have. Thay're absolutely awesome friends, and I'm a jackass. I should just go jump off a bridge or something. But don't freak out, I'm too much of a coward to do something like that. Or even to OD myself on Tylenol, which is probably the only thing in the house there's enough of. I really should go apologize, but why should she listen to me? I do this so often, I think I've run out of chances...
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