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Dreams, and what they mean
its a log I recently started to keep track of all my 'weird' dreams. not the sick dreams the other weird ones. I say that because somehow in one form or another they have all come true, and a few of them...are a little disturbing.
To those that don't believe. God is real. I know it. Because tonight a woman helped to teach me something. She helped teach me it's alright to not be afraid of your feelings. She helped me to be brave, she helped me find a strength I never thought was there. I.....I am not worthy of her, and she knows. yet she still continued to meet and talk and spend time with me. while I was growing up, at church I would always see my pastors and there wives. They always told everyone the woman was out of their league. that any force OTHER than God was with them, the pastor and his wife wouldn't be together. I used to say to myself, "how could they say that?" After meeting her I understand what they felt. She is truly out of my league, and God help me I will try to keep her close to me as long as I can.






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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 03:12pm
You don't see yourself very clearly, you know.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 04:34pm
I guess not. but I have always been harder on myself so that I would try harder. maybe me being harder on myself, made me think that I wasn't good enough for any woman. maybe me being harder on myself made it so hard for me to accept the fact that a woman would actually like me for me regardless of what others thought of me. you think I should go easier on myself?



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:03pm
Just a bit, yeah. I mean, I don't mind helping you with that, but it would make it easier if you weren't so hard on yourself all the time. You're wonderful person, you just have to see that.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:06pm
heh, alright I will try to be less judgemental of myself and relax. maybe I will see me the way you see me.



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:08pm
Good, I'm glad you're willing to give it a try.

Perhaps you will, one day.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:16pm
I don't know how long it will take to break the habit. they say the worse the habit the harder it is to break. After so many years of thinking it was a good thing I think it will be pretty hard to do so. Will you help me try?



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:18pm
That's okay. I'm pacient...usually.

Of course. I would be honored to.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:23pm
Then Aes Sedai, I am your student. teach me what you can.



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:26pm
I shall give it my best try.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:29pm
Thats all I can ask. Thats all I can expect. You'll make a darn good teacher.



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:34pm
As long as my student is willing to freely learn, then there should be no problem.


commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:37pm
=] my mind is a sponge feel free to use it to soak up whatever you feel like.



Namathorn
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jc-jade
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commentCommented on: Sun Mar 22, 2009 @ 07:42pm
I'll keep that in mind. ^_^


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