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I'm really bored right now, so I'm gonna talk about what's on my mind. No one ever reads this s**t, so it really doesn't matter what I say. However, if you are one of the few people hoping for a conclusion to my unfinished story, PM and I'll have the finale typed up and posted. Anyway, I've been thinking alot about love. It's such a curious thing. It's never simple. Even a mother's love for her child has it's complexities. On the surface it's simple, yes. As a child, the love is normally unconditional. As it grows up, things change. Some mothers love becomes warped into an obsession. An obsession that can lead to insanity. Sometimes a mother will begin to resent her child, hate it for whatever sadnness it represents. Like an abandoning husband, a rape, or poverty. Some mothers hate their children before they have even left the womb. Some parents have a favorite child, some love their children only so much to an extent. By that I mean, save themselves instead of their child. Love can also complicate friendships. I dunno. Sometimes love forces it's way into your heart and you can't push away feelings for someone you may well never have a chance with. What I mean by that is, for example: A guy meets a girl, they date and fall in love. They stay together for 4 years. Both still happy, and intent on getting married. Then he meets another girl. They get along great. He gets feelings that he carefully pushes to the back of his mind. Sooner her later he begins to love her. He remains loyal to his fiancee but still, that other love is there. He loves his fiancee just as much as he does this other girl. So what does he do? What should he do? He'd do what most of us would do. Stay with the woman he knows and loves and then buries those feelings in his heart until they die. It a ******** brutal sad feeling, I'm sure. It probably hurts like hell for a little too. Then even after all that, 20 years down the road happily married with a couple kids, the question could worm it's way into your mind. It will sneak in undetected and hit you hard. You'll feel it cold and bitter in your mind. It gets stuck and it's a b***h to get out of your head. For someone who actually reads this, you wanna know the question? You haven't figured it out yet have you? Well, just in case, this is the question: What if......? What if? Those are some horrible ******** words right there. The question of what could've been. Not everyone can let that go so easily. What is love, really? What does love mean? My answer is this: Whatever the ******** you want. Love is complex so let's make it easy. Make it what you want. If you're happy, then ******** it. Be happy. Whew, I'm outta fuel. I feel better though. Maybe I'll do this more often. Later......