Gah! I'm so confused!
I woke up crying this morning because I had this nightmare where Jonathan had completely forgot about me and he had another girlfriend. That's not possible right?? He can't forget me! I mean, the last time he called was two weeks ago but that just means he's busy, right? Ugh my dream was awful. But what do I do if he does forget me? Should I just move on?? I ******** up with his parents...Man it just sucks I love him so ******** much and I'm so infatuated with him and I think about him all the time and when the phone rings I race to it to see if it's him but it never is. ._. And am I weighing him down? Would normal people just break up after they can't see each other? That seems kind of logical..but I don't want to! I want to spend the rest of my life with him! But this gap in our relationship is killing me. Does he really truly madly deeply still love me the way I do him? Or am I just a crazy teenager in denial? crying
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