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I probably should let things go... I have been letting go of several things, but there are some I still want to keep... can't you see I'm trying to leave you space, since we know we won’t ever go back to how it used to be, but it's hurting me... I believe there are certain things that should not have to require me telling you... but it seems you can't catch on to that at all... why else would I be typing this on gaia's journal.... when I see you especially when I'm feeling down, I want a hug, and the times you do, I would like to give a hug back.... with a hug, it tells me that I have friends that still care, no matter the situation... I know I'm being a selfish idiot, and probably even dumber for even falling for you... I'm still at a stage where for no reason your name is repeated inside my head... and remembering the promises and the words you said......... dammit! why the hell am I such an idiot cry ...... I know you don't want to show your emotion much, but at least show something that will say that I'm wasting my time with a brick wall...... you siad that I would find someone better... I don't see how when I've nver felt anything like the feeling that I had when I was with you.... now I'm missing that feeling and my heart is just left with pieces that crack every other day... this is the only way I know how to decribe myself................