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i wish i can stop loving her...but its hard...i wish...someone could make me happy just like amber did...but no one makes me feel the same no more...she was everything to me and i was everything to her...but i let that slip away...just like my life is slipping away right now...every day i wake up i see her name i see her Birthday and our Anniversary cause its on my door every day...my heart goes threw pain every day...seeing what i let go...its so hard to move on...from that kind of thing and add to all of that my mom is dying...the one woman that loved me the most...the one to help me the most when me and her broke up...i cried every where i went i really didn't want to live no more but she told me to move on and good things will happen to you...but its not working...i don't have no one that loves me the most any more...i'm always down now my heart cries out every day...tears always cover my face every day now...but nothing seems to be going good for me...its really hard to cover sadness behind laughter...i just want my life to change...to get better...for that someone to help me threw this...

this is my most favorite song

When I'm With You - Faber Drive

this ment something to me when i was happy...

Saw you walk in to the room
Thought i'd try to talk to you
Babe am i every glad you wanted me too
Its been two years to the day
half the time I've been away
i know I'm not there enough
but that is gonna change
cause I'm coming back
to show you that
I'm keeping the promise that i made

When i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

yeah we've had our ups and downs
but we've always worked them out
babe am i ever glad we got this far now
still i'm lying here tonight
wishing i was by your side
cause when i'm not there enough
nothing feels right
so i'm coming back to show you that I'll love you the rest of my life

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you

whatever it takes
im not gonna break the promise i made

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you

when i'm with you
I'll make every second count
cause i miss you, whenever your not around
when i kiss you
i still get butterflies
years from now
i'll make every second count
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you
when i'm with you