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I can't stand my family
but likewise my family can't stand me

I drove them off
they never wanted me
I found that out yesterday
I'm no use to anyone at all
whatever

I never liked them
they never liked me

I was told what they really thought of me by my own mother

I have to much emotions
I give too much attitude
I never laugh with them

Do they ever look at themselves?
Constantly talking about me behind my back in tagalog
Making fun of me when all I'm doing is just sitting there or just eating
"hahaha look at you! do you want us to mix you're rice too like you're a child?"
Put their face in front of mine with an expression "wow, she's part of our family? disgusting"
They expect me to like them (ofcourse I can pretend) when one of them did so much crap to me constantly and constantly?
Look at me as if I'm some alien newborn whenever I cry "Oh they're she goes all hysterical again"
Why can't they ever mind their own business?
I never do anything to them and because of that they jump to conclusion.
something has to be wrong with me right?

wow.
I hate my family
I hate my family so much now
they think I don't know that they hate me too?
"do you know what they really think of you?
what they say about you?"
screw you...
screw all of you...
because I'm not lady like
because I have too many emotions
because I can't help but not care what the family is into

why is it so hard to leave me alone?
All I'm doing is sitting doing nothing, staying quiet
You're all speaking in a different language
and when I do understand
I just don't find it interesting

But you have to make things complicated
"I can't stand you! I'm leaving tomorrow in the morning!"

I'm an awful person
you call that self-pity?
what else am I suppose to say to myself
that I did the right thing?

just stay the ******** out then
everything with you
have to about guns, knifes, death
that's the only solution to you...