What I realize is I mostly want to get a solid hand on life. Just to grasp a place in society and play an important role in it. Kind of like an in z movie where the main character always has something to do and is always making things happen. Like instance the main character has the to go get someone for revenge. The chracter is made sure that that duty is executed because it is part oof the story. I guess I like to have life my written in a scrip so it will be more easier and less complicated. I trust that I dont have a path that I must yet. Or else I would'nt have to stuck here with nothing to do. I need to find something to do. It doesn't matter what it is as long as it is something to do. yep I just don't know what to do. questionquestionquestionquestionquestionquestionquestion