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glancing back, thinking back, trying not to let anyone see
that i am wondering if i did things right.
always appearing so confident in my actions,
half the time i would die before renouncing a decision
i don't want people to know that i am scared and indecisive.
i get aggressive to hide the fear.
i just want to be held.
so i keep looking back and hoping i will regain confidence that i once had...
when did i have this confidence?
should i retrace my steps?
i fear i would find myself somewhere i don't want to be -
so i keep looking back and hoping i will regain the love that i once had...
where did i leave it?
tell me, is my heart even beating?
why does the love keep leaving?
i don't want to die, i don't wish death on those that hurt me -
i just want to know where my heart is