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Okay... Well... I just felt like typing this random thing in my journal about how confused I am... Well anyways their's this guy named Josh I really like him and he's really sweet and all but ummm I... Thought I was just bisexual but I don't think I am I think I might be a full on lesbian well not like I dress like a dude lesbian ugh I don't think I can date a girl that has that stupid hair cut and does that walk they do... For some reason their just a turn off for me but anyways... My head is spinning at the moment I don't know what to do and I promised to go to homecoming with him I don't wanna go now! And I can't be mean and ditch him he won't be able to find a date on such a short notice... I'm feeling really sick now... And I want to come out to my mom... But I can't because she will yell at me and then tell me I'm not aloud to hang out with my Friend Amber any more and Amber isn't even ******** bi or anything but she likes to blame things on people Don't see what good yelling at me will do it won't change my mind about any thing what so ever it will just deppress the hell outta me well I know she will yell at me at first and then she will send me to my room and then call into the living room ask me why I like girls and then tell me I can't hang out with Amber or listen to "That Head Banging s**t!" Again and then she will send me to my room again and call me out an hour or two later and say some crap about how she still loves me no matter what I am and s**t god my life is retarded!