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It is at the moment 19:48 ( 7:48 ).
I don't feel well again but I'm acting like I always do.
I don't like to let people know that I'm not feeling well.
It makes them worried about me and or sad.
I don't like when other friends are sad.

For instence Friday at the end of the day, the more I thought about all the guy problems and all the loneliness started to just, sink in, and I went into one of my steeps of depresion. I haven't realized this until now but I have been feeling like this for some time now. I have just been in denial all this time. Sometimes I don't want to be happy because I know I'm just faking it. I know I'll just be upset again. Why am I like this? Is it because I feel lonely? Is it the fact that no one (guy) in the school likes me?

Okay, I like a number of guys. When I talk about them I will code name them with words that best describe them. I will also order them from least to greatest depending how much I like them.

1--cutie pie
2--punk
3--wtf?!
4--funny guy
5--fuzzy head
6--black (not sure about him though, maybe its just a strong friendship thing)

Good bye, Bruce Almighty is on!