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When you playfully tell me the person I love more than anything doesn't want me anymore, I REALLY want to DIE. MC

Even after more than a year of 'us', no matter how much I love you, I'm waiting for you to see your mistake and leave me.... NW

When I'm hurting inside, I want to drown out the pain by hurting even more on the ouside. TP

Sometimes I can't even think your name without bursting into tears. TP NW

When I can't sleep, I cry, looking at the pictures on my wall and the picture of you beside my bed that's in a heart-shaped frame. My friends said it was pathetic that I'd printed he picture and put it there, but sometimes it helps me sleep. Sometimes... I kiss it goodnight and wish it were really you. TP NW

I no longer share my inner most thoughts and emotions with you because of the time at one of your parties, years ago. You told everyone how lonely I was. You told them how much I hated myself. You told them how lost I was/am... MC

I often wonder if your love for me was just a game to pass the time for you... NW

Sometimes you get out of hand and keep goung ( *>_> like with the scissors... and the perfume bottle and the stockings. I think you just like to cut and bruise me sometimes) and it can get very dangerous, not to mention, annoying as hell. ( My mother said you should be on medication. XD ) MC

Just the sound of your voice can get me pissed off, even if I was in a good mood before. DP (Me mum...)

Sometimes being near you makes my head feel like it's going to explode. MC

I don't think so that I won't cry. If I don't think of you, how you don't talk to me, how you're accident prone, how you always seem to get hurt, how you may or may not love me anymore, how I feel like I don't exist without your attention, how I miss you, how it hurts to think of you.... If I don't think, I can't hurt... So I don't think. I read and listen to music so I don't have to think. I draw and blare music so I don't have to think. I have music playing constantly so I can follow the words and the beat so I won't have to think. NW TP