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my will for you

smiles and laughs,
jokes and teases,
we’re the best of friends,
and I hope it will stay that way,
but when I get home,
after spending a day with you,
I cry.
I want you to see that I’m here for you,
I want you to care that I’m the one that’s here,
I will always be with you when you need me,
I will never leave when you’re feeling down,
I want you to trust me enough to tell me the things on your mind,
if something is bothering you,
I want you to tell me,
if you don’t,
I’ll act like it’s okay,
but really,
inside I feel like I’ve been shot right through the heart,
I can’t say I’m in love with you,
but I love you like any one should,
when you’re mistreated,
there’s nothing more that I want,
than to find that person and give them hell,
you always act like everything is okay,
and I will always play along,
but at home,
or when you’re not around,
I let my heart sink to it’s lowest,
my heart has been scarred and broken,
I wish I could say you’ve never been one to carve your name in it,
but your signature is the largest,
I want to know why you hide,
have I given you any reason to?
if I have I’m so sorry,
I want you to be able to give me your heart and soul when you need to,
I want to help you whenever I can,
if I can’t,
I will spend my nights alone,
and crying into my pillow,
why can’t you believe in my will for you?