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When I finally realized that I was thinking about you
I felt really embarrassed at first
And I honestly hated that feeling
Its because I’m afraid to accept my feelings….

Even though I can suppress in my head, I cant do a single thing about my heart
I don’t let you notice it when we talk
So the conversation can be a bit normal

Acting so composed has started to hurt
Maybe lying to you will help… but…

I cant anymore…I cant anymore…
I wont let myself get closer to your heart any longer…
I cant anymore…I cant anymore…
I wont let the moment that we met leave me…

Someone please, let me be stronger….

When I’m alone, thinking my crazy thoughts
I worry about how you really look at me
I’m sorry if I seemed a bit cold trying to find out….

I’m not being myself, and I dislike the mixed emotions around my heart
Sometimes I just want to run away….but…

I cant anymore….I cant anymore….
No longer will I try and be someone else
I cant anymore…I cant anymore…
No longer will I try and act alright when I’m not
So when I’m lonely I’ll just wipe away my tears

I stare at my reflection in the mirror….
No, I haven’t gotten stronger and I haven’t gotten more confident
But look at me when I smile ok?

Not anymore… Not anymore…
No I wont stop fighting for what I truly want
Not anymore…Not anymore…
No I wont ever let this great moment end

Someone let me be stronger,
Because I think someone needs me….