Who am I you ask?
I am EVERYTHING
...i am nothing
I scream to be heard
But whisper to make them listen
Im bold mrgreen
Im me 3nodding
Im happy xd
and crazy rofl
im quiet redface
im ... who? question
im sad
and normal neutral
the TWO of me combined into ONE, thinking and moving at the same time so we are not noticed as much
I strive to be heard
but afraid of what they'll hear
I believe that im ready
but know that i'm not right
I go to church at intervals so i can learn
but feel bad 'cause i know i dont belong
i like to seem rock cool
... but know that im not hard
i hate to seem preppy blaugh
... but know that'd i'd fit it
i hate the outlook of emo's emo
... but love their cool style
i act COMPLETELY DIFFERENT around each of my friends <3
heart but they all hold the same place in my heart heart
im WRONG
...
(am i right?)
Love is everything to me
but i constantly see it's destruction
I have no voice
yet i speak every day
Im told i have talent
but see everything i WANT to be, but could never become
i see the worlds mistakes but
LOVE
IT
TO
DEATH
IT
TO
DEATH
i waste and use and hurt and worsen everything i hate and say im doing the world good
i strive to achieve and i think im almost there...
then the ledge im standing on b
re
a
ks
and i fall all the way back down...
im pompous and proud
yet act completely humble
i contradict
every
single
move
i
make
i see everyone else
and im envious
i want to be them
i want to succeed
i want to be loved
i want
and want
and want
and im envious
i want to be them
i want to succeed
i want to be loved
i want
and want
and want
but what do i do to get it?
NOTHING
im told im great
and good
and powerful
and smart
and beautiful
and funny
and nice
and sweet
and i accept their complements
and i put on a fake smile
and i say thank you
and i know that they lie
i wish and want and dream and hope and pray... even though i have no one to pray to
i befriend people who build me up and i never tell them
i love people just for the sake of being loved in return
im a walking, breathing, living sin
i befriend people who build me up and i never tell them
i love people just for the sake of being loved in return
im a walking, breathing, living sin
i tell myself it's right and i know plain well that it's wrong
I BETRAY
I HURT
... and im sorry for everything i've done
forgive and forget?
sure rolleyes
when the world explodes ... but i suppose by then it'll be too late
so i forgive now
and i forget immediately
and im ok again
.... for a while
until i find another way to go off on silly little tangents and call them poems
-Stephanie Pratt-
