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Killing Loneliness.....
This isn't an ordinary journal I'm afraid. I guess this is one of those blogs that you stay like, "what the hell?" kind of thing. Anyways, um, yeah it doesn't have anything to do with HIM's song 'Killing Loneliness', don't worry. So, getting to the subject at hand, lately I've been feeling very, but VERY lonesome and I have no idea why. I mean, I am surrounded by people that love me and care for me so, why the hell do I feel like this??? I have friends, or people that call themselves that, that do care for me and are there for me at times, but most of the times, I am alone, it is my damn nature to be alone and I simply hate it. Most of the time I am alone, I practically live alone, I am only needed when something needs to be done and it's not a good feeling. What mostly annoys me is the fact that I hurt people because of it, because of my damn dark, lonesome, mysterious nature. Unintentional, but I do it anyways and it makes me sick to know that I am an anger waiting to explode or something like that. I really don't know what else to add to this I mean, I want to get rid of this feeling, but it's not going away, it's been there for some time now and I've been afraid to express it due to existent or non-existent consecuences. You might think that I am emo or some s**t like that, well let me clear that out for you.....I AM NOT ANYTHING LIKE THAT!!!!! The fact that I have feelings, the fact that I do worry for myself doesn't imply that I am emo or anything like it. Anyway, um, I don't know, if you want to comment, then feel free to do so; comment, opinion, point of view, any of them are more than welcome.....
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