Today I woke up in a crappy mood today. I wasn't very hungry (as was the last few days with the same results) and I wasn't in the mood for a bike ride. And it came to snap back to reality that mind mind screamed "HELLO!! You and Falon are over! WTF is wrong with you??"
To me it just seemed like I was being biased. Because everytime someone said something about Falon and I dating from far away I would get pissy about it, and where did that leave to? Because I didn't want her to hurt while I was gone, I broke it off. It feels like I lost a serious battle. Because I finally dated the girl of my dreams and it seemed I didn't have a care for anyone else in the world if they opposed to it, for whatever reason, because two girls aren't supposed to date, because long-distance relationships don't last, because I'm jealous and loved Falon before you did, etc. Just too much drama, but I didn't give a damn, as long as we were both happy. Now it just feels like I'm proving them right.
Now that the relationship is over and I'm here in Atlanta, and I thought I would be happy. Or at least over it. I'm not. Everything feels worse because next to Mike (who died in his sleep) and Beverly (who was leaving anyhow), I had nothing left in that small, dull town. Sure, I had friends, but there is a such thing as best friends too. And you can't help but feel that sting of jealousy when you see two people holding hands.
So this a message for Falon's new girlfriend, whenever that time comes-- she needs no more suffering, so making her happy is not a choice for you to make, it's an order. I'm pretty sure that's common sense though.
So god luck with life, Yurimon, because for now, as I said before, I am scared shitless about what the future holds, but I will make an effort to live life.
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