Sitting in front of the house we grew up in, I remember you.
I already miss you.
It's only been a little while since you passed but I still need you.
I see a cloud above me and it makes me cry.
It's you saying,
wave goodbye, little one.
I'm not done.
How can I just wave goodbye to everything about you?
How can I go to your funeral and talk about you?
Your memory is too sweet for me to break apart on.
What the hell am I gon' do now that you're gone?
Who told you that it was okay to see the light?
Why did God take you from my side?
You have some nerve dying on me without a word.
Boy, you always had that tendency to be so absurd.
Your passing is like a sad song that no one's heard,
it sticks to your mind in an instant.
You didn't think about your death.
You weren't hesitant.
But now I'm sitting here on the porch of our childhood home thinking.
Maybe your dying was the right and just thing.
Not that I hated you.
Not that I wanted you gone.
I just think that you've found a better place.
You've found a better home.
I just wish I didn't feel so alone.
But you wanted to die so you died.
Now look at all the things you've left me,
did you know you had all these papers here inside?
All these bills and receipts and all the books?
Please!
I can't understand how you had become so cluttered.
You were the type of person who dared to clean.
You hated living in squalor.
But I'll love you forever, Kylie.
I can't wait to see you again.
I know it'll be a while.
And look, your name makes me rhyme slightly easier.
How funny.
I'll smile now that I'm thinking of you.
I'll dance with you in the wind when it blows because it'll be you.
I'll smoke a cigarette with you and you'll blow it out.
You hated that about me.
Smoking like a chimney.
I'll try to quit for you, my precious lover.
If i quit, tell my mother.
But I'll wave goodbye to our love and your life.
I'll think of you each and every night.
Take care.
Forever always.
No matter how hard I cry.
You'll always be on my mind.
 xXDeaths WishXx · Fri May 16, 2008 @ 05:05am · 0 Comments |
