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Stray.
1. To move away from a group, deviate from the correct course, or go beyond established limits.
2. To wander about without a destination or purpose
3. To become diverted from a subject or train of thought

I've become a stray, I feel. Disconnected from the world around me, roaming from one place to another. My life seems to have no purpose within it but to live.

And what for? Nobody expects me to succeed in life, and though I try, I cant seem to get a grip on my current situation.. one where families play favorites. Other members get benefits, I get the short end of the stick. This whole year, I've wandered through school without purpose, trying to fool myself that I did have purpose, but it seems to me that purpose is really no purpose at all. I had no purpose. I thought I was funny; nobody laughs.. at least at my jokes rather than at me.. My jokes aren't funny, it's me. I'm the joke. I thought I could help people with their problems.. No, I try to focus more on my own self than anyone else.. I say i want to help, but where they should be telling me what's up, I've become just someone who whines and crys about their problems. See? I'm doing it now.

I can never focus on one thing. I can space out for hours at a time on just nothing. Only few things catch my attention; music, anime, and games. Most of the time i'm thinking of them if they're not directly in my life at that moment, making schoolwork hard, I'm failing classes because I cant think.

I wander with little purpose, I try to accomplish things in life, but I see no way in anyone here feeling that I've accomplished anything. I feel worthless in my family. I feel like I'm just the family failure, yes, my family makes me feel like nothing more than a failure, no better equipped for advancement than my ******** livingroom couch.


Yeah, no wonder I feel like a stray, I'm nothing but an outcast anyways.